Weird Rite of Passage

Dec 03, 2008 20:19

Today was an interesting day.  I found out one of the clients I have been working with for almost 2 years, an older gay guy, had another suicide attempt.  His last attempt was shortly after I started working with him and I wasn't really sure how to deal with it at the time.  Today, when I heard, I felt mildly guilty that I hadn't been in as regular touch with him lately.  I did feel mildly guilt particularily that I hadn't called sooner after the November elections to see how he was doing, but overall I felt mild detachment.  This makes it easier for me to hold space for his pain and warm thoughts for his healing.  I suppose it is a weird rite of passage because when I first started doing social service type work I asked older professionals how they kept going for so long, and "mild detachment" was the answer.  I suppose this means I'm good to stay in social service type work for the long haul but my heart really is in advocacy and systems change.   
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