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I’ve been home for quite some time now. It feels awkward. Almost as if I’ve been dropped off at some place random by my parents to learn, to grow, to have fun, supposedly, and now I’m back. Learned many things, broken down walls, and replaced them with new ideas, but I’m still me. Still growing, will never be grown.
This year has been miserable, the worst of all my years away at school. I can’t explain the reasons why, because it has been so much. Mounds of what I’m sure were just little things that became too heavy and painful for me. I can’t say I’ve been sad, or depressed, I haven’t been, not really. It’s just been a long while since I’ve been genuinely happy. Yet somewhere deep inside, I never ceased to believe that anything wrong becomes right again, eventually. To see the rainbow, you must put up with the rain, isn’t that what they always say?
I am looking forward for Summer. To be able to sit in the park, play by the ocean, and wander in any and all directions. An aimless wanderer, they’ve called me. But not all who wander, by my definition, are aimless!
I miss my big, Jeannette. Very much.
This year has been miserable, the worst of all my years away at school. I can’t explain the reasons why, because it has been so much. Mounds of what I’m sure were just little things that became too heavy and painful for me. I can’t say I’ve been sad, or depressed, I haven’t been, not really. It’s just been a long while since I’ve been genuinely happy. Yet somewhere deep inside, I never ceased to believe that anything wrong becomes right again, eventually. To see the rainbow, you must put up with the rain, isn’t that what they always say?
I am looking forward for Summer. To be able to sit in the park, play by the ocean, and wander in any and all directions. An aimless wanderer, they’ve called me. But not all who wander, by my definition, are aimless!
I miss my big, Jeannette. Very much.