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I usually try to keep my posts short and somewhat up-beat, or at least as non-whiny as possible, so please forgive me if this one is a little mopey/long.
As many of you know I have just begun to develop a relationship with the man, who for 19 years was known as "the sperm donor" (not because of a sperm bank, just because he bailed). Over the last year and a half he has grown up and we have begun to fix all of the stuff years of abandonment and broken promises caused. I have been getting to know him as a person and starting to build a father/daughter relationship for the first time. This afternoon threatened to take that all away.
He was driving a sky-lift off of a trailer at work when it tipped off the side and threw him around the cage. This caused bruising/bleeding of the brain as well as a skull fracture. He was mmediately air lifted to the ICU unit in Grand Rapids where he is currently sedated in something very much like a medicated comma. His vitals are promising, and there is no pressure or swelling in the brain as of yet. Things are hopeful but I can't seem to get my head straight.
I have been in this state of "upset", for lack of better word, since I got the first call. Normally I would have already dropped everything and gone home to be there with the family. The shitty thing is, this is finals week. I have a finals Thursday, Friday, Monday, and Tuesday. I was supposed to be studying tonight but I just can't bring myself to do it.
I know there is no good in going home now as he will never know that I was there and I can't make him heal any faster. I just feel like that is where I need to be.
I'm also supposed to babysit tomorrow night and saturday night for two different families. Not only do I feel bad for wanting to cop out on them but I kind of need the money.
I really should just tough it out and go home when all is done. He might be awake then and it makes more sense. I'm just terrified that I am going to fail all of my exams because I just can't focus. Why did he have to go and injure one of the most vital parts of his body?
I would like to change my character sheet to add healing + 1 billion now please.
As many of you know I have just begun to develop a relationship with the man, who for 19 years was known as "the sperm donor" (not because of a sperm bank, just because he bailed). Over the last year and a half he has grown up and we have begun to fix all of the stuff years of abandonment and broken promises caused. I have been getting to know him as a person and starting to build a father/daughter relationship for the first time. This afternoon threatened to take that all away.
He was driving a sky-lift off of a trailer at work when it tipped off the side and threw him around the cage. This caused bruising/bleeding of the brain as well as a skull fracture. He was mmediately air lifted to the ICU unit in Grand Rapids where he is currently sedated in something very much like a medicated comma. His vitals are promising, and there is no pressure or swelling in the brain as of yet. Things are hopeful but I can't seem to get my head straight.
I have been in this state of "upset", for lack of better word, since I got the first call. Normally I would have already dropped everything and gone home to be there with the family. The shitty thing is, this is finals week. I have a finals Thursday, Friday, Monday, and Tuesday. I was supposed to be studying tonight but I just can't bring myself to do it.
I know there is no good in going home now as he will never know that I was there and I can't make him heal any faster. I just feel like that is where I need to be.
I'm also supposed to babysit tomorrow night and saturday night for two different families. Not only do I feel bad for wanting to cop out on them but I kind of need the money.
I really should just tough it out and go home when all is done. He might be awake then and it makes more sense. I'm just terrified that I am going to fail all of my exams because I just can't focus. Why did he have to go and injure one of the most vital parts of his body?
I would like to change my character sheet to add healing + 1 billion now please.