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I've been in silicon valley for a year now yay!
work is boring as ever, but I tell myself "this is your mission if you choose to accept it" and being that i'm such a dedicated person. I accept. Sometimes I think I'm the only person who has the patience to get the detail work done at the lowest level. Seriously, I have way too much stamina for the mundane. I can work through shit I hate. But this will be temporary, because self abuse is not the purpose of life. I decided to finish up my CAD course series, even though I don't technically need it for my current job. Working in the defense industry comes with the fact that with fluctuations in war/peace there are periodic reductions in force. So I have to continually develop myself for other work opportunities. I don't ever want to be "dissapointed" or "scared" when a war is over.
all the same, working at a company that makes tanks/military vehicles is pretty rad. i mean, the things are so beautifully amazing. And the people who work there are for the most part hardcore realists, who are my kind of people.
I went to the SF Electronic Music Festival, I was really impressed with the artists, but it did not leave me longing for more, or clinging to the senses as it used to. Through it all it was mostly beautiful empty abstraction. I mean, the mystery and beauty of music is always there. But it's just symptomatic of the beauty. without beauty there would be no music.
work is boring as ever, but I tell myself "this is your mission if you choose to accept it" and being that i'm such a dedicated person. I accept. Sometimes I think I'm the only person who has the patience to get the detail work done at the lowest level. Seriously, I have way too much stamina for the mundane. I can work through shit I hate. But this will be temporary, because self abuse is not the purpose of life. I decided to finish up my CAD course series, even though I don't technically need it for my current job. Working in the defense industry comes with the fact that with fluctuations in war/peace there are periodic reductions in force. So I have to continually develop myself for other work opportunities. I don't ever want to be "dissapointed" or "scared" when a war is over.
all the same, working at a company that makes tanks/military vehicles is pretty rad. i mean, the things are so beautifully amazing. And the people who work there are for the most part hardcore realists, who are my kind of people.
I went to the SF Electronic Music Festival, I was really impressed with the artists, but it did not leave me longing for more, or clinging to the senses as it used to. Through it all it was mostly beautiful empty abstraction. I mean, the mystery and beauty of music is always there. But it's just symptomatic of the beauty. without beauty there would be no music.