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Have you ever felt that you are making the biggest mistake of your life? I know i feel that way right now. I just don't know why. Something inside of me is screaming that i'm screwing up something really bad. On top of that i have been having dreams that Josh hates me, i don't know why. But it feels so real, like he really does hate me, and it hurts. I really wish i wouldn't let my dreams influence my reality, but i guess it's pretty hard when you wake up with blood in your mouth because you had a dream that some one hit you. In that dream the person was faceless, so it could have been anybody who hit me. I don't know what to do anymore. I just don't feel like myself right now. And im not looking for pity, i just want to express what i'm feeling right now. I guess i have rambled on long enough. Have a happy halloween, i'm going as a witch, just kidding.