oh sheeeeeeeeit

[puppetdumbly]

Things I have to do by tomorrow:

• Read Remembering
• Write a paper on Remembering

Things I have to do this weekend:

• Stage manage a matinee and evening show
• Babysit
• Write a theatre paper

Things I have to do before I leave school:

• Clean my room
• Pack my shit
• Write my final Humanities paper
• Take my editing final
• Possibly write out a huge stage managing binder?  Maybe?  *is confused*

I'm so unbelievably stressed right now it's not even funny.  I've started to hate my play.  Like, so much it's not even funny.  I don't know how or why I ended up with this shitty deal.  I got the most complicated play, the most disturbing play, and the director that's hardest to work with.  I've started having theatre nightmares again, except this time it's been projecting people I love onto the characters in the play and there are only so many times you can dream about your sister getting raped before you start to resent this whole deal.  If it weren't for the other wonderful people involved in the other shows, my beatiful and talented and lovely cast, the guy I maybe-kinda-sorta have an itty-bitty crush on, and the fact that I get to be a zombie... I'd peace out.  I know I'd be leaving them hanging, but I don't care.

Dear director-person,
What the hell made you think that choosing this play was a good idea?  If you wanted to pick something controversial, there are other plays out there.  If you wanted to pick something about mythology, there are other plays out there.  If you wanted something dark and spooky, there are other plays out there.  If you wanted something that re-tells a story, there are other plays out there.
But no.  You picked a fucking RADIO play with a rape scene.  That means there isn't enough time for scene changes, it's not written for the stage, and that nobody was meant to SEE it.
Also, getting a straight answer out of you is harder than pulling teeth.  At this point I'd take the root canal.
I'm so fucking over this freaking show and the freaking rape scene and the freaking nit-picky decisions and the freaking NEVER GETTING A STRAIGHT ANSWER.

I hate this play and I want it to go away.