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I've raging for days and I just can't concentrate on studying. I have this friend who always thinks she's right. No matter what, she's always right. Even things like which one tastes better blueberry or strawberry. "But blueberry is healthy and tastes good too!!!!!" She's always sharing her advice on everything. "Why don't you buy Oltermanni (a cheese that tastes like modeling clay)?" "Because I think it tastes like shit. I prefer stronger flavor" "But it's so much better and has no food additive (chemicals whatever)!" "This cheese has no food additives either and that Oltermanni is too big. It gets bad before I have eaten even half of it" "But Oltermanni is better!!!" This could go on forever. And her tone. She gets so fierce. I feel like I killed her mother or something whenever I disagree with her.
Today I was going to send hand made (by me!) baby booties to my cousin who gave birth yesterday. Then she asked me: "Why don't you go to Oulu (which is far. Like 600 km) by bus and post the booties there?" "Why should I go there?" "It's cheaper and more convenient you know" "But why should I travel all the way there to post my package when I can do the exactly same here?" "Look, if you go to Oulu by bus, it's only like 35 euros, and post them there it'll be so much cheaper. And then you can take a train to Rovaniemi (200 km north from Oulu)!" "But why? It'll cost only about the same amount as a normal letter" "But you have take on account the weight. It'll cost like 53 euros hey" "But these are only tiny booties" "But you're going to send them far hey! Just take a bus and go to Oulu!" "But it doesn't matter as long as you're sending things inside Finland. Everything under 200 g can be posted anywhere in Finland with an ordinary second class stamp" "But my mom send things for her sister to Moldova and it was like 50 euros!!! D8< I don't know so much about these things anyway!! I just send emails and ecards. Why are you even sending these? Why can't you just send an email?" "Because letters and hand made things just hold so much more emotion. Anyone can send an email just like that. And ecards are kinda lame" "But emails can hold emotions too" "I think sending things by mail holds so much more emotion" "Why don't you just take a picture of you letter and send it by email then" (like omg what's the point in that jfc) Continue this stupid conversation for awhile and I lost my shit. I said I'm going to go on my own bye!!! but I was so enraged that I walked the wrong way and she told me I'm going the wrong way and then I ended going with her to the post office. In there she suggested all kinds of huge and expensive boxes and cards. I took the smallest parcel instead and went to to the cashier to send my package. 1,85 euros in total. Going to be in Oulu by tomorrow.
If sometimes she's right about something (not in an any kind of debate, just stupid things) she gets so victorious and starts telling everyone around her "AHA!! AHA! I TOLD YOU! I SAID IT! I TOLD YOU IT WAS LIKE THIS!!!". Like last week my lunch would've been at 11 am and so I went to see my literature teacher to the fourth floor. I thought they have the same lunch so the teacher would be free. She was free like I thought and I asked her if I'm right that they have lunch now too and if I could get my paper then. She said yes and went to the class room to get my paper but it was full of students. We had both been mistakes (lol she should have all the classes she's teaching in the fourth floor she should know). I went to lunch and my friends asked me where I had been. So I started explaining and when I got to the part where I thought fourth floor had the same lunch as the fifth she started "But they have lunch at 11:30" "But I thought then they had the same as-" "But they have lunch at 11:30" "But I thought then they has the same" "But it's not" "Whatever so blah blah blah... but we had both been mistaken" "AHA! I TOLD YOU! I TOLD YOU IT WAS AT 11:30!!" Like that wasn't even the point. I wasn't saying that they had lunch then. I was saying that I thought like that and the teacher thought so too and lol the fail and that's why I was late. She acted though the point was that the fourth floor has lunch at 11:00 and her goal was to prove me wrong.
Then she always says she can help with this and this and that but it never is actually help or a friends favor. It's a service that I pay for. Like once she offered to take me to the railway station by car when I'm going back to north for holiday. At first I said there no need but then my mom asked me to take my bicycle with me so there was no way to get there with a bike and a truckload of other stuff so I asked my friend if she could still give me a ride. "OK, but you'll pay the gas" ...what? I understand that if I'm going somewhere far but the railway station is like 3 km away. And when she offers it like that it's natural to expect that she doesn't need paying. Then she started to rant about the bike. She didn't understand why I couldn't just buy another bike and have it in north and the other one in here.
Or when I had hurt my foot and I had to use crutches. It was hard for me to go to buy groceries like that so asked if she could help me and she was like okay sure of course I'll help you you're my friend and you're hurt blah blah. She was also carrying my schoolbag all the time even though I told her I could do it myself "but you're hurt and I want to help you" she also always opened the doors for me and carried basically everything for me. And I never asked for any of it. I actually told her she didn't need to but she insisted. So, she carried the small basket and picked the things I wanted and helped me to carry the things to the bus stop. (And the girl who offered to help me to carry my groceries from the bus stop to my home was Taiwanese and she lives just in the building next to mine and I want to know her and talk Chinese with her but I feel creepy DD: ) Then the next day, "I carried her HEAVY basket and ohhh I thought I was dying and I did everything she told me to and!! I was your slave for a day. You need to repay this for me! I even opened all the doors and carried your heavy bag!" She kept demanding me to repay for her enslavement until I agreed to buy her a movie ticket. She always want something that you can buy or just money. This makes me so mad. When a friend is in need you help them because they're your friend and they'll help you when you need it. Not like she thinks it is: when a friend is in need you help them and then you get a prize.
I live on my own unlike most of my friends at school and my friend always pities me for that I'm poor. So would she be if she lived on her own and didn't want to take anymore money from her parents than necessary. She acts like I don't have choice. My parent do always want to give me money and they're not poor but I want to learn to stand on my own so I only take and ask for it when my account is on zero or I need to buy something more expensive like school books, a new school bag or train tickets to visit my aunt. She always wants to buy ice cream for me. I always refuse at first but she keep insisting that she wants buy one for me because I'm her friend and doesn't stop until I let her buy it. When she had her birthday I baked a cake for her but it failed (just my luck. It never fails when I'm doing it just for me or when I'm at home in north and there's old bananas and I'm like I have to use these, I'll bake a cake) the Christmas holiday began after that so I couldn't just bake another one and give it to her the next day. Also, the ingredients were quite expensive. For my birthday, she bought a 20 euro gift token to a candy store. She now keeps telling me that she gave me a present that cost 20 euros and she didn't get anything for me except a card since the cake failed. All the time. And she won't stop. Like I should make up for it somehow. After 5 months.
Another one happened last weekend. I had managed to land a job for summer. I don't get any student money from the government for summer months since I'm not at school but I still need to pay my rent. The first thing she said to me in Facebook when she heard about it was that now I could buy lots of ice cream and other sweet things for her. I just ignored her but then she kept pestering me about it at school. All my money from the work probably goes to the rent. I also want to save some for plane tickets to Taiwan. I don't get it. Sometimes she pities me and offers to buy everything for me and then she wants me to spend the little money I get to buy her ice cream.
She always she doesn't have anything against gays "but I don't get it, what's the point in that. There's no sense in it" lol ok then. Since when there have been sense in love.
She always talks bad things about those who have courage to be personal. Anyone who dresses up a bit "weirdly" in her opinion is a Lady Gaga copier. Anyone who has super colorful clothes or hair color any other than brown, black, blonde, red or natural orange. I hate it how she goes like lol look at her what's wrong with her. Or when some of our friends, or those who are not but we kinda know them, have something in their look she doesn't like. One of them had very long and a bit untidy nails. "Why don't you cut them? You look like a witch (she used a quite not nice way of saying a witch in Finnish which is not nice)" I can't stand it. Why she has to try to ruin everything different and personal. She always wears black, grey, white, blue or brown. And then goes like "white is so boring" when I say I would like to buy a white summer dress.Lmao look at yourself and then tell me what's boring. I'm sorry. I nowadays prefer quite natural style and my hair is completely natural but next time I'm going to dye my hair it's not going to have boring highlights like she suggested. It's going to be bright red or pastel purple. Oh yeah. Back to old days \o/