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Well I am in and out a few times now I guess. So heres the fun stuff....
I think that I may have married to young. For this reason...I want to be young and party and change beds many times and I think that I settled down to fast. I love ben with a passion and wouldn't want anything to be different. However, being married makes me feel like I am stuck and I really don't like that feeling. I talk to people my age and they are always like you're married! Yes, I know, don't even say it, I already feel it.
There is this guy at work that if I had no one I wouldn't mind being involved with and I don't think he would mind either if his girlfriend was out too. Go figure. We flirt like crazy at work when we work together. I went drinking with him and also another guy from work and had a blast. I fear that I will be turning to the alcohol more than I should for the simple facts that one, I can't find any reefer, I'm not happy with Ben unless I am intoxicated, and that way I forget all the weird things going on in my head right now. Great!!
Freaking great. I am vey confused now, I thought that I was ready and apparently I am not.
So I am still hung up about the whole Melissa thing. Yes I know that was almost a year ago, but I need to draw a close to this. I keep waiting for time to take effect and just let it wither away but it isn't. I am still mad at her, and that she didn't call and that we aren't friends anymore....I feel like I should be in high school again. Go figure though huh, always want to be somewhere else at any other time.
Work is well. In two months I was promotted to Assistant manager of my department. However, I am still making only 7 an hour. What a life. I figured out school, Viticulture. Yea! How unfreaking exciting. Oh wella....life goes on and so must I...
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I think that I may have married to young. For this reason...I want to be young and party and change beds many times and I think that I settled down to fast. I love ben with a passion and wouldn't want anything to be different. However, being married makes me feel like I am stuck and I really don't like that feeling. I talk to people my age and they are always like you're married! Yes, I know, don't even say it, I already feel it.
There is this guy at work that if I had no one I wouldn't mind being involved with and I don't think he would mind either if his girlfriend was out too. Go figure. We flirt like crazy at work when we work together. I went drinking with him and also another guy from work and had a blast. I fear that I will be turning to the alcohol more than I should for the simple facts that one, I can't find any reefer, I'm not happy with Ben unless I am intoxicated, and that way I forget all the weird things going on in my head right now. Great!!
Freaking great. I am vey confused now, I thought that I was ready and apparently I am not.
So I am still hung up about the whole Melissa thing. Yes I know that was almost a year ago, but I need to draw a close to this. I keep waiting for time to take effect and just let it wither away but it isn't. I am still mad at her, and that she didn't call and that we aren't friends anymore....I feel like I should be in high school again. Go figure though huh, always want to be somewhere else at any other time.
Work is well. In two months I was promotted to Assistant manager of my department. However, I am still making only 7 an hour. What a life. I figured out school, Viticulture. Yea! How unfreaking exciting. Oh wella....life goes on and so must I...
laters