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I just dont know anymore.
what about college?
whats the point?
should we even bother?
I love him to death. But I really dont think I can deal with fighting all the time.
I reallly dont think if Im away things will work out.
I really dont think we arent going to meet anyone else..
I really wish I just knew if this was right, or if its not worth the trouble.

Im sick of fighting
Im sick of walking on egg shells
Im sick of defending myself
Im sick of crying
Im sick of not knowing
Im sick of everything.

Some days everything is fine. He's wonderful. He's amazing. He makes me feel like a princess. But then more times than not I feel stupid and tired.

I have not started scholorships.
I have not started homework.
I have done anything fun this fucking vacation.
I have not gone anywhere.
I have not done anything.

Yesterday was alright. I slept in. I got a massage, a manicure and a pedicure. I sat at home, didnt go to work and watched tv for the entire rest of the day/night.
now I need to get out before I kill everything.

fuck my life.