akward is an akward word..
Its Friday!
well. I've been meaning to write here for a while, but yaknow.
alright umm, where to start?
I had a dream about Brian last night. Alyssa and I were at his house and just kinda chillin in his room.
I miss him. I wish things would have been the way I thought they were.
It just kinda seems like everyones got someone, and who am I stuck with? Trevor.
Kaitlins in England. Its strange. I miss her.
Saint Patty's Day was very good.
Lauren and I walked on Wed. morning i think it was.. We woke up at 5 and walked to the field. i love that field, i wish we werent so rushed.
okay, well. today lets start
english- Macbeth test. eck
history- got our tests back, 64, then he gave us another test on the next chapter, I flipped out, he hasnt taught it to us yet he said he wanted to know what we already knew and then would average the 2 test grades out and that would be our grade. he was kidding, i woulda gotten 41 wrong, thats off the charts! lol
bio (3rd period)- took notes on eggs, got very grossed out, shoulda turned vegan right then.
bio (4th)- disected a frog. they were so frozen and sad looking. i flipped out, couldnt handle it. i really didnt think i'd be the kind of person who would pass out or anything. it wasnt that i was gross. it was just so sad. they were born, grown and nurtured and loved, just to be killed and mocked by high school kids. I freaked out, went to the bathroom, fell to the floor about to puke or pass out. i was so dizzy, shaking uncontrollably, sobbing hysterically and hyperventalating. mrs. cotnoir came and called the nurse who came up with a weel-chair and brought me to the office to lay down and drink.
I have been dizzy lately. but it was incredible.
I felt like i was crucifying Christ in frog form and going through his insides. he used to be a living being creature! he used to hop around, eat, love, feel joy and taste, he felt the mud between his little webbed toes. swam around and soaked up the sun, all to be frozen in a bucket and picked apart. have nails that looked like finishing nails from home depot jabbed into his little arms and legs holding him down as if he could squirm from pain. then we used siccors and tweezers to peel apart his skin and inspect his insides.. PRIVACY PEOPLE!
*sigh* it was terrible, just thinking about it makes me want to cry.
geometry- STUPID!! i got a 55 on my test, hah, it brought my average up! you try to figure that one out lol
spanish- movie
then, I tutored Christopher, almost bashed his face into a wall he was being so annoying and unfocused.
tryed to go to karate, but my uniform was still in the fucking wash.
ugh
went shopping with girlscouts, Linda double booked and so she had company over while the gs came to her house to meet before shopping. heh, guess who here company was?!
gregory.
oh. boy.
as if it wasnt a bad enough day lol
so, it took me a while to register who it was, they looked kinda farmiliar.. and then i realized. he was giving me really dirty looks, talk about AKWARD!
i felt like i was going to throw up, once again.
shopping.
hah
caffine is my friend
lol
okay, im sick of typing,
chaoo!
*quote*
Meeting you was fate
Becoming your friend was by choice
But falling in love with you..
was completely beyond my control
well. I've been meaning to write here for a while, but yaknow.
alright umm, where to start?
I had a dream about Brian last night. Alyssa and I were at his house and just kinda chillin in his room.
I miss him. I wish things would have been the way I thought they were.
It just kinda seems like everyones got someone, and who am I stuck with? Trevor.
Kaitlins in England. Its strange. I miss her.
Saint Patty's Day was very good.
Lauren and I walked on Wed. morning i think it was.. We woke up at 5 and walked to the field. i love that field, i wish we werent so rushed.
okay, well. today lets start
english- Macbeth test. eck
history- got our tests back, 64, then he gave us another test on the next chapter, I flipped out, he hasnt taught it to us yet he said he wanted to know what we already knew and then would average the 2 test grades out and that would be our grade. he was kidding, i woulda gotten 41 wrong, thats off the charts! lol
bio (3rd period)- took notes on eggs, got very grossed out, shoulda turned vegan right then.
bio (4th)- disected a frog. they were so frozen and sad looking. i flipped out, couldnt handle it. i really didnt think i'd be the kind of person who would pass out or anything. it wasnt that i was gross. it was just so sad. they were born, grown and nurtured and loved, just to be killed and mocked by high school kids. I freaked out, went to the bathroom, fell to the floor about to puke or pass out. i was so dizzy, shaking uncontrollably, sobbing hysterically and hyperventalating. mrs. cotnoir came and called the nurse who came up with a weel-chair and brought me to the office to lay down and drink.
I have been dizzy lately. but it was incredible.
I felt like i was crucifying Christ in frog form and going through his insides. he used to be a living being creature! he used to hop around, eat, love, feel joy and taste, he felt the mud between his little webbed toes. swam around and soaked up the sun, all to be frozen in a bucket and picked apart. have nails that looked like finishing nails from home depot jabbed into his little arms and legs holding him down as if he could squirm from pain. then we used siccors and tweezers to peel apart his skin and inspect his insides.. PRIVACY PEOPLE!
*sigh* it was terrible, just thinking about it makes me want to cry.
geometry- STUPID!! i got a 55 on my test, hah, it brought my average up! you try to figure that one out lol
spanish- movie
then, I tutored Christopher, almost bashed his face into a wall he was being so annoying and unfocused.
tryed to go to karate, but my uniform was still in the fucking wash.
ugh
went shopping with girlscouts, Linda double booked and so she had company over while the gs came to her house to meet before shopping. heh, guess who here company was?!
gregory.
oh. boy.
as if it wasnt a bad enough day lol
so, it took me a while to register who it was, they looked kinda farmiliar.. and then i realized. he was giving me really dirty looks, talk about AKWARD!
i felt like i was going to throw up, once again.
shopping.
hah
caffine is my friend
lol
okay, im sick of typing,
chaoo!
*quote*
Meeting you was fate
Becoming your friend was by choice
But falling in love with you..
was completely beyond my control