Great day
Felt great today. Went up to my friends gallery to pick up a package, then into the office to say hello and merry Xmas to everyone for the weekend coming up. Getting out into the world has an amazing effect on my mind set and such. I am still struggling with people understanding that I am sick....and they don't quite understand how sick...for example, my brother was asking about seeing the doctor that was going to treat me and try something new. I have stopped all treatments and now it's a "quality" vs. "quantity" time. He needs to understand that, and I don't really know why he hasn't. I really need to settle with the family that I am a very sick man.
The real medical issue really is the strength right now. Physically, my body has not started it's shut down at all. The cancer is advancing as it will, there is not much I can do about that. Any kind of treatment would do me in, vs. the actual cancer itself. When he mentioned that, it kind of took me back about what might be going on in his head...but then again, I don't know. I need to give him all the info and let him process as he will.
My dad is the same way....he mentioned that since I couldn't get to the phone for his call yesterday, that I must be feeling great and out of the house...like I have that option. Really, the only option is trying to get up and down the stairs between the first and second floors!
I have a lot to process...
The real medical issue really is the strength right now. Physically, my body has not started it's shut down at all. The cancer is advancing as it will, there is not much I can do about that. Any kind of treatment would do me in, vs. the actual cancer itself. When he mentioned that, it kind of took me back about what might be going on in his head...but then again, I don't know. I need to give him all the info and let him process as he will.
My dad is the same way....he mentioned that since I couldn't get to the phone for his call yesterday, that I must be feeling great and out of the house...like I have that option. Really, the only option is trying to get up and down the stairs between the first and second floors!
I have a lot to process...