NO FUTURE NO FUTURE NO FUTURE UP THA PUNX!!!!!
This is a better time than any I guess to update my 'internet journal'. Firstly, I am growing to hate the internet more and more with each passing day. Mainly because as much time as I waste on here, the less likely important things that NEED doing will not happen. Uhh..so I've cut down drastically on cruising the highly uninteresting information highway. I also work all the time so actually talking to REAL LIVE people has kind of been on a decline too.
Ugh...in the past month I've been out of town every weekend (except the last) and I guess now all I have to do in the next few months is work, save money, work, etc. I mean, it's all good and everything but I get too restless knowing weeks in advance that I won't be going anywhere. Being mentally prepared to stay put is dreary and makes me bored. Oh well..wahhh wahhh wahhh.
Hmm...well I came back from Florida last week and I will not lie, but I fell in love with it. I was in Orlando and the night I got there I went to the soia/dropkick murphy's tour. I had gotten off the plane at 7pm and the show was at 6 so I reached the hotel and took a cab right away. It was at the House of Blues in downtown Disney..interesting location I suppose. I was dead tired from the 8+h flight (we had to make 2 connections, one in mpls and the other in detroit) so as soon as it was done I went right back to the hotel to bed. One of the main ideas as to WHY I like it so much there is a)if you want to see a band no matter how big or crappy they are..guaranteed they're playing 3-4 shows in nearby cities which only takes you a max of 45m-1h to drive to. you can see the same band like 3 times in the same week b) no matter where you are it will take you 30m to find a beach and c)even the coldest temperature there still enables you to walk around in cutoffs and t-shirts. I worked from 9am to 5 every day and me and the people I work with went out for food and to the beach and shopping. I came back with some shoes, a shirt and a nice little box made of seashells. Seeing the ocean for the first time in 3 years was amazing; it's my favorite thing in the whole world (that, and lighthouses because I will own one, one day!!!)..seeing the vast never-ending blue seascape and chilling out on the warm white sand.
I met a lot of great people there, and I guess it just reminded me again of how much everyone is missing when they are in one location for prolonged periods of time. After I come back from any place down south, whether it be San Antonio, corpus christie or monterrey, I always have these profound and most of the time, a heavy feeling of depression that causes me to think of some sort of re-evaluation of my life. I mean, I'm only 19 and so far I've had the idea of getting a degree shoved down my throat billions of times in the past 2 years. Of course I want to go to school, it's never been more or less important to me..but now that I'm a little more clear-headed about what sort of "direction" my life should take (like anyone really knows)..I know that I don't want to spend my time being followed by horrendous debt in my mid-twenties. If I want to travel, obviously economical problems aren't going to disappear when I leave...just collect while I'm gone. I don't want any of that..and I guess I'm finally realizing that I'm way too young..even in the next 5-6 years from now..that now is the right time to move here or there..I have dual citizenship for Mexico and I intend on using it; take opportunities that are available NOW, and not fuckin worry about whether or not I'm 'established' enough at a certain age. Everyone keeps thinking of a certain formula, or structure to follow...without realizing that no one will have the same result or dreams or goals as another person.
It's all bullshit, and I'm too fueled by restlessness and criticism to care.
Ha ha ha, I'm not ranting here...I guess I'm just stoked on my rather large attempt to leave the country next year.
I bought the Jarhead 'collectors edition' dvd so I'm going to go watch that now.
Ugh...in the past month I've been out of town every weekend (except the last) and I guess now all I have to do in the next few months is work, save money, work, etc. I mean, it's all good and everything but I get too restless knowing weeks in advance that I won't be going anywhere. Being mentally prepared to stay put is dreary and makes me bored. Oh well..wahhh wahhh wahhh.
Hmm...well I came back from Florida last week and I will not lie, but I fell in love with it. I was in Orlando and the night I got there I went to the soia/dropkick murphy's tour. I had gotten off the plane at 7pm and the show was at 6 so I reached the hotel and took a cab right away. It was at the House of Blues in downtown Disney..interesting location I suppose. I was dead tired from the 8+h flight (we had to make 2 connections, one in mpls and the other in detroit) so as soon as it was done I went right back to the hotel to bed. One of the main ideas as to WHY I like it so much there is a)if you want to see a band no matter how big or crappy they are..guaranteed they're playing 3-4 shows in nearby cities which only takes you a max of 45m-1h to drive to. you can see the same band like 3 times in the same week b) no matter where you are it will take you 30m to find a beach and c)even the coldest temperature there still enables you to walk around in cutoffs and t-shirts. I worked from 9am to 5 every day and me and the people I work with went out for food and to the beach and shopping. I came back with some shoes, a shirt and a nice little box made of seashells. Seeing the ocean for the first time in 3 years was amazing; it's my favorite thing in the whole world (that, and lighthouses because I will own one, one day!!!)..seeing the vast never-ending blue seascape and chilling out on the warm white sand.
I met a lot of great people there, and I guess it just reminded me again of how much everyone is missing when they are in one location for prolonged periods of time. After I come back from any place down south, whether it be San Antonio, corpus christie or monterrey, I always have these profound and most of the time, a heavy feeling of depression that causes me to think of some sort of re-evaluation of my life. I mean, I'm only 19 and so far I've had the idea of getting a degree shoved down my throat billions of times in the past 2 years. Of course I want to go to school, it's never been more or less important to me..but now that I'm a little more clear-headed about what sort of "direction" my life should take (like anyone really knows)..I know that I don't want to spend my time being followed by horrendous debt in my mid-twenties. If I want to travel, obviously economical problems aren't going to disappear when I leave...just collect while I'm gone. I don't want any of that..and I guess I'm finally realizing that I'm way too young..even in the next 5-6 years from now..that now is the right time to move here or there..I have dual citizenship for Mexico and I intend on using it; take opportunities that are available NOW, and not fuckin worry about whether or not I'm 'established' enough at a certain age. Everyone keeps thinking of a certain formula, or structure to follow...without realizing that no one will have the same result or dreams or goals as another person.
It's all bullshit, and I'm too fueled by restlessness and criticism to care.
Ha ha ha, I'm not ranting here...I guess I'm just stoked on my rather large attempt to leave the country next year.
I bought the Jarhead 'collectors edition' dvd so I'm going to go watch that now.