A Philosopher's prayer
Don't worry about the subject title. Actually I don't even no why i bother to fill those in, mostly because I don't like leaving blank spaces before I hit the tab key again. Today is one of those days that you sit down and think... talk with your family... think some more... realize that your family agrees with you... think again... and decide to change your view altogether. If it's happened to you, then I apologize, this pathway shouldn't ever exist. All I really have to turn to in life is God... no-one else. It amazes me how He accepts me- my past not accounted for in His eyes. Everyone on earth has this assumption and imagery of me in their mind and it sticks with them... no matter what. My past was filled with lies and destroying over and over my integrity and its interesting in how you try to build it back but it won't work because any miscommunication not only breaks it apart again, but extends your reputation even farther. I can't expect to please anyone in this lifetime except God with my worship. It's great really... It's like worshipping the greatest Genius of all time who knows every bit of you and created everything of you, but has one of those short term memory disorders so that every time you slip and fall on the sin scale He still sees you as you and not as the sin. I don't know why I type out my thoughts... or even why I share it with everyone else as if in sharing things become better. I just find myself at peace in God and that no-one will ever share that with me because He is all i want and all I need. I'm the world's stereotype, but I'm God's unique design. I thought that up just now... knowing that the world will never see all my intricacies and know me for who I am, but He will and does every moment in all of time. It's good God has given me a brother and sister of true encouragement.
"I felt really sorry for Jeremy. I put him through hell, always checking, never fully trusting. I guess it was good in the end because I was sure, and after we got married it stopped right there and there were no more fights." - Sarah
"I know you love her Austin. In fact, I can already tell you that she is the one and that we are rooting for her. Just hang in there and see each one of these as a challenge or something to accomplish that if you do you'll only be stronger and better in her eyes." -Jeremy
Well I know that God has chosen her, so I will do what it takes plus more because I'm in love with her. I just know that all my strength is going to be drawn from Him for I am weak, and without him would have already been defeated in my attempts to win her.
I don't really care what you people comment, or if you do at all. Really, I did this because it takes more time to delete and I'm lazy, and its faster since I'd have to write it in pencil and most of my thoughts swim by without the chance to rethink.
-Austin
"I felt really sorry for Jeremy. I put him through hell, always checking, never fully trusting. I guess it was good in the end because I was sure, and after we got married it stopped right there and there were no more fights." - Sarah
"I know you love her Austin. In fact, I can already tell you that she is the one and that we are rooting for her. Just hang in there and see each one of these as a challenge or something to accomplish that if you do you'll only be stronger and better in her eyes." -Jeremy
Well I know that God has chosen her, so I will do what it takes plus more because I'm in love with her. I just know that all my strength is going to be drawn from Him for I am weak, and without him would have already been defeated in my attempts to win her.
I don't really care what you people comment, or if you do at all. Really, I did this because it takes more time to delete and I'm lazy, and its faster since I'd have to write it in pencil and most of my thoughts swim by without the chance to rethink.
-Austin