I led a good life
Avery is going to be 1 in a week. This is a huge deal to me. This past year has totally turned my world upside down. I feel so lucky to have Avery in my life. I never wanted kids and now I can't imagine life without him. I gave up a lot to be a good mother to him and I don't regret a minute of it. I figure I will have time to go back to acting later on and I am completing other life goals that I had right now. Like getting my BA. I am 17 classes away from that goal. I stopped smoking, which was a goal I wanted to achieve by 30. It has been almost 2 years and it feels great. I am also getting in touch with who I am without all the superficial crap that comes along with acting and modeling... and I really like who I am.
All this said, Avery will not be a baby much longer. It has been an amazing year! I am sad and happy all at once. I know we have a lot more firsts to come and that change is good, but I will miss the baby things like his smell and how we just cuddle up and nurse after a day at work or a few hours at the library. I am aiming for another year of nursing, but leaving the decision up to Avery.
In honor of the big 1 we are having a huge Mexican bash. My parents arrive next week and Justin's mom on Avery's birthday. There will be a pinata, food, and a noisy bunch of people. I will cherish every minute. I'm already laughing at how Mexican it is. We are trying to fit 30 people in our tiny house with 4 chairs and a couch and the pinata takes up the whole backseat of my mom's car, which will make for an interesting drive from California. I know I will cry I know I will laugh. I am such a mom.
All this said, Avery will not be a baby much longer. It has been an amazing year! I am sad and happy all at once. I know we have a lot more firsts to come and that change is good, but I will miss the baby things like his smell and how we just cuddle up and nurse after a day at work or a few hours at the library. I am aiming for another year of nursing, but leaving the decision up to Avery.
In honor of the big 1 we are having a huge Mexican bash. My parents arrive next week and Justin's mom on Avery's birthday. There will be a pinata, food, and a noisy bunch of people. I will cherish every minute. I'm already laughing at how Mexican it is. We are trying to fit 30 people in our tiny house with 4 chairs and a couch and the pinata takes up the whole backseat of my mom's car, which will make for an interesting drive from California. I know I will cry I know I will laugh. I am such a mom.