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humans create these barriers for themselves. the funny thing is that for some reason we create hurdles that are impossible to jump. i don't know why we do this. maybe so that in the 10 per cent chance we happen to jump those impossibly tall hurdles...with all the luck in the world on our side, both a rabbits foot and four-leaf clover hanging out of our left pocket...we are able to feel super human. impossibly special and amazing. and that ounce of self respect we gain from doing the impossible helps to faintly shroud the massive amounts of insecurities and regrets, at least for a small time.
me and a couple of my friends have decided to create a zine. me and chris have attempted to begin a comic. i have promised canvases and t-shirts to many people. all these promises to myself of future creativity...i keep setting 100 foot tall hurdles in my path. I can't even jump 3 feet off the ground, why would i set myself up to attempt 100 feet? It's crazy. People are crazy.
I put a lot of faith in other people, to do better than i am doing myself. but time and time again they don't live up to the expectations. I am not trying to be morbid or cynical here. I am just trying to explain to myself that i believe all people suffer from setting thier goals, thier dreams, and thier wants so far above them because they fear that if they were actually in reach...well who am I kidding, none of us will ever be that tall.
as much as i didn't want this to, it came across as cynical. i think my writing style...no, my thinking style, my train of thought, my brain, is cynical. and vague.
OI
school starts on monday.
me and a couple of my friends have decided to create a zine. me and chris have attempted to begin a comic. i have promised canvases and t-shirts to many people. all these promises to myself of future creativity...i keep setting 100 foot tall hurdles in my path. I can't even jump 3 feet off the ground, why would i set myself up to attempt 100 feet? It's crazy. People are crazy.
I put a lot of faith in other people, to do better than i am doing myself. but time and time again they don't live up to the expectations. I am not trying to be morbid or cynical here. I am just trying to explain to myself that i believe all people suffer from setting thier goals, thier dreams, and thier wants so far above them because they fear that if they were actually in reach...well who am I kidding, none of us will ever be that tall.
as much as i didn't want this to, it came across as cynical. i think my writing style...no, my thinking style, my train of thought, my brain, is cynical. and vague.
OI
school starts on monday.