general ramblings
i had a dream last night. i dreamed that mat was cheating on me, but he was doing it right in front of me, and in front of everyone else.
my dreams are very emotionally intense. and i woke up feeling upset and confused and tired. emotionally drained if you will. All day i have been jittery and panicky and jumpy. it sucks.
dreams are strange. i obviously am housing some concerns about mat and the way he reacts to me. he is emotionally...weird. i don't know any other way to describe it. But, whatever, that seems to be the standard for guys i date. come february we will have been dating for a year, which for me is groundbreaking. and i care about him a lot. i just get scared sometimes because i care so much, and i am scared he is gonna fuck it up. haha.
in other news school is crazy. as usual. life is pretty boring. no, life is really boring. not bad. but boring.
i am never home, yet at the same time never doing anything really except hanging out at mat's house or doing homework. out of 10 nights i have slept in my bed once, i think.
i need to think of something to be for halloween. but since i only have 3 dollars until november, it has to be something readily available.
CHRISTINA! costume ideas are needed.
my dreams are very emotionally intense. and i woke up feeling upset and confused and tired. emotionally drained if you will. All day i have been jittery and panicky and jumpy. it sucks.
dreams are strange. i obviously am housing some concerns about mat and the way he reacts to me. he is emotionally...weird. i don't know any other way to describe it. But, whatever, that seems to be the standard for guys i date. come february we will have been dating for a year, which for me is groundbreaking. and i care about him a lot. i just get scared sometimes because i care so much, and i am scared he is gonna fuck it up. haha.
in other news school is crazy. as usual. life is pretty boring. no, life is really boring. not bad. but boring.
i am never home, yet at the same time never doing anything really except hanging out at mat's house or doing homework. out of 10 nights i have slept in my bed once, i think.
i need to think of something to be for halloween. but since i only have 3 dollars until november, it has to be something readily available.
CHRISTINA! costume ideas are needed.