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so far in classes i'm doing alright math sucks but that's nothing new. i've been going to church the past 3 weeks with joe and his family....somewhat akward but in a way it's filling a gap. well it feels like it is. it's something about being there surrounded by people who belive and have faith without reason and they are so convinced of everything that faith teachs them. i want to learn more about this. it's every intrigueing of how this idea can bring a burly man to his knees in front of a crowd and show his weaknesses. i wish i had faith in anything like that. but being in church listening to these people speak it makes me to open my heart to all of this and have that faith.maybe in time i will be able to expierence what they do...on the other hand i like being at the church it's very welcoming, the pastor is a very great man who i met at easter and it's kinda heart warming to see him interact with everyone in the church knowing how at the moment he is battling cancer. i also love being there and praying. it makes me feel close to my grandmother. although this maybe not the best of things to enjoy about church but i love when i'm praying and joe reaches over and holds my hand.
i feel like i belong there....
i feel like i belong there....