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So I'm pretty sure I broke one of my really good friends hearts the other day. :( He really likes me and I honestly don't feel the same way about him. He says all these really nice things, treats me well and I am comfortable around him but when I think about being with him I feel as though I'm settling somehow. I don't get butterflies when I'm around him or stomach flips or anything like that. My mom told me that maybe I shouldn't look for those or expect those. Why shouldn't I? Everyone writes about it, sings about makes movies about it why can't it be real? I'm young I don't feel as though I have to settle for anything. I should expect more shouldn't I? even though this friend of mine is probably one of the only guys that has told me all these wonderful things about me. I don't trust him either though and that's a big problem for me. I feel like he only gives me part of the picture and not the whole thing. He had a relationship with one of our mutual friends before I had met him and according to him its done and I'm all he thinks about. But according to others they still make out and still go out together and all that sort of stuff so I don't know what that's all about. I guess it would matter more if I wanted to be with him. Sigh why do things always have to be so complicated?