*Sigh*
Well, I am unsure of how life is treating me right now. I have my first A&P test this Thursday. I am really going to have to study the night before. I've always done pretty well on my exams. Thursday is also parent's night for my sister in basketball. I hope she doesn't cry. I cried at my last game. I guess you would of had to of played to understand how much it means to you. I am a sucker for things like that. It was just the other day that Beth and I were drawing out our run-out-tepee. Yeah, LADY WARRIORS!!! There is so much I miss about high school but mainly, I miss my friends. There has been so many people that I haven't seen since graduation night. It's funny, I thought we would always all be so close. I know we will all always be there for each other but it still kind of sucks. I guess that sounds pretty lame.
There has been so much running through my head lately and I have been getting so depressed. I guess angry would be more of the word for it. Why am I a people pleaser? I always try to do what's right but...I don't even know what's right anymore. I've never thought of what's right for me. I don't know what I am even talking about right now.
Tell me this? Why do people assume you will change everything for them? Why can't someone love you for who and what you are? This is something I've had running through my head. It's not about anyone in general. It's just random thoughts. Why do people try to make you feel stupid? Why do they put themselves on a pedestal why you rot at the bottom? I just don't understand. The only thing you can be, is yourself. Everyone goes through changes. If you love that person, you will see them through it and stand right by them. You shouldn't have to do anything that you are uncomfortable with. Enough with this rant.
Today I am hoping this lecture will go by pretty fast. I am going to tan after class then go home and shower. I haven't ate anything today and I really don't feel like it. I am going to lose that weight if it takes the life of me. I am pretty sure that I am going to play some basketball with Randy after he gets out of class. He's my best friend. I don't know what I would do without him. Oh, and since "certain" people say I never write about them anymore I will have to give a shout-out. I LOVE YOU JOEL! I LOVE YOU NIPPY! I LOVE YOU TODD! Todd, I really hope my advice helped you last night. You have helped me out with more than I could of asked for and I am glad to be able to finally return the favor. I am always here for you. We will have to Rtrip it up sometime soon. I miss our drunken country drives. Don't forget the porn next time...hehe. That sure was one crazy night. I miss nights like that. That's what friends are for though, to make you comfortable. You 4 and some of my closest friends. I will always be here for when you need me.
Listen to me ramble. I just have so much built up inside of me. I wish season 3 of Dawson's Creek was downloaded so I could watch it. I already went through season 2 in one night. I love this show so much. Isn't it weird what can take you back. Open you up to those memories that you thought you had long ago forgotten. I love things like this. I am hopeless. I am a dreamer. Don't fault me for it. I love it.
There has been so much running through my head lately and I have been getting so depressed. I guess angry would be more of the word for it. Why am I a people pleaser? I always try to do what's right but...I don't even know what's right anymore. I've never thought of what's right for me. I don't know what I am even talking about right now.
Tell me this? Why do people assume you will change everything for them? Why can't someone love you for who and what you are? This is something I've had running through my head. It's not about anyone in general. It's just random thoughts. Why do people try to make you feel stupid? Why do they put themselves on a pedestal why you rot at the bottom? I just don't understand. The only thing you can be, is yourself. Everyone goes through changes. If you love that person, you will see them through it and stand right by them. You shouldn't have to do anything that you are uncomfortable with. Enough with this rant.
Today I am hoping this lecture will go by pretty fast. I am going to tan after class then go home and shower. I haven't ate anything today and I really don't feel like it. I am going to lose that weight if it takes the life of me. I am pretty sure that I am going to play some basketball with Randy after he gets out of class. He's my best friend. I don't know what I would do without him. Oh, and since "certain" people say I never write about them anymore I will have to give a shout-out. I LOVE YOU JOEL! I LOVE YOU NIPPY! I LOVE YOU TODD! Todd, I really hope my advice helped you last night. You have helped me out with more than I could of asked for and I am glad to be able to finally return the favor. I am always here for you. We will have to Rtrip it up sometime soon. I miss our drunken country drives. Don't forget the porn next time...hehe. That sure was one crazy night. I miss nights like that. That's what friends are for though, to make you comfortable. You 4 and some of my closest friends. I will always be here for when you need me.
Listen to me ramble. I just have so much built up inside of me. I wish season 3 of Dawson's Creek was downloaded so I could watch it. I already went through season 2 in one night. I love this show so much. Isn't it weird what can take you back. Open you up to those memories that you thought you had long ago forgotten. I love things like this. I am hopeless. I am a dreamer. Don't fault me for it. I love it.