neo post...ignore unless you're a neo friend
It just makes me so sad that all my Neo friends have scattered these days. I know that a lot of them don't even play anymore, and that makes me even sadder. I haven't fucking spoken to Yuki since like the week after AAA closed, and that's heartbreaking. Even the ones that still play are all so scattered. I'm in Luna now but things have been slow, and now Barb is gone which seems odd. I am working on getting things going in there, and that's kindve exciting, but I know I am so busy and don't want to start something I can't see through. Oh well...it needs to happen. I have to have a place that I can be with friends and have a loving guild like I used to. Yes, I have an account in LEF, and I do love all my friends over there, but I can't go back to being super involved in that guild, because it makes me too sad. I miss what was back in those first days. I miss how exciting it was to start Heralds of the Flame, and then how it was even more exciting to start the Plushie Exchange. I remember how those first couple of months, council mail was so fun...almost every email said something like "LEF Rocks!" or "We are awesome" or something else really encouraging. We were part of something big. We were coming out of the shadow of one of the legendary guilds of Neopia, and starting something clean out of all the filth that AAA had become. I miss those days. And I miss the old AAA too. One of my best Neo memories was when Kari neomailed me to let me know that the Council of Resources was starting up and I was going to assisting Crystal in the Garden of Kindness. And then just before AAA closed, I got to be on Council like I had always wanted. I wanted so badly to be an Elder, and then a Radiant in LEF. I knew that I would be so good at it, but the time never came around. I stayed pretty bitter about that for a good while, and it certainly caused some disharmony, but honestly I will still always cherish the memories I had in both guilds and the friends I made. Some people wouldn't understand how affecting a stupid website can be, but a lot of you really touched my life in a time that I needed it. Thank you. I long for those old times...maybe one day I'll have something like that in my neolife again. I'm going to try...