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So I was on my way home from ultimate state champs tonight... we were listening to the radio, and this song comes on. I don't even remember what song it was. But it made me think.
It made me think of all the stuff I haven't done yet. All the things I could be doing.
It made me realize that my self esteem has gone up quite a bit... and I hadn't noticed until today, when I played ultimate at state today. Meh, that was cool. Even if I am pretty sore and tired. It's all good. It was nice to be needed.
I want to make a video... a movie. Like, just of my friends. Doing normal stuff. Funny stuff. I need a movie editor on my compy. Then I'll put music to it, and it'll be fun.
I can find a situation in my life for pretty much every single song I listen to. Music is the story of my life. Most of the time. Sometimes it's the story of other people's lives, and that's when it affects me the most.
I'm not going to waste my time debating and arguing when I know every word out of my mouth is going to be contradicted. When I have no chance of getting through to someone, I'm just not going to try. Go ahead, tell me I'm wrong. Everyone always does. But I don't care. I'm tired of that stressed, frustrating feeling of trying to get an apathetic person to be empathetic. I'm also kinda tired of the lack of empathy in the world right now. I don't just mean for me. I mean for everyone, for each other. Everyone is so apathetic, that me, and my ooozing empathy really just don't fit it.
But I'm okay. I'm happy. I'm just incredibly sorry.
But being sorry isn't what causes change. And I did have a break through about how I'm going to change. I'm figuring out what's wrong with me, and that's always good. Now to do the changing. I've never been good at change. But the stuff I have going on needs to be fixed, so I'm going to fix it.
Alright. I'm done now. For now.
Bye guys.
Faith
It made me think of all the stuff I haven't done yet. All the things I could be doing.
It made me realize that my self esteem has gone up quite a bit... and I hadn't noticed until today, when I played ultimate at state today. Meh, that was cool. Even if I am pretty sore and tired. It's all good. It was nice to be needed.
I want to make a video... a movie. Like, just of my friends. Doing normal stuff. Funny stuff. I need a movie editor on my compy. Then I'll put music to it, and it'll be fun.
I can find a situation in my life for pretty much every single song I listen to. Music is the story of my life. Most of the time. Sometimes it's the story of other people's lives, and that's when it affects me the most.
I'm not going to waste my time debating and arguing when I know every word out of my mouth is going to be contradicted. When I have no chance of getting through to someone, I'm just not going to try. Go ahead, tell me I'm wrong. Everyone always does. But I don't care. I'm tired of that stressed, frustrating feeling of trying to get an apathetic person to be empathetic. I'm also kinda tired of the lack of empathy in the world right now. I don't just mean for me. I mean for everyone, for each other. Everyone is so apathetic, that me, and my ooozing empathy really just don't fit it.
But I'm okay. I'm happy. I'm just incredibly sorry.
But being sorry isn't what causes change. And I did have a break through about how I'm going to change. I'm figuring out what's wrong with me, and that's always good. Now to do the changing. I've never been good at change. But the stuff I have going on needs to be fixed, so I'm going to fix it.
Alright. I'm done now. For now.
Bye guys.
Faith