blah... i hate everything
so yea... yesterday would've been pretty good if:
*i wasn't sick and left work early
*didn't have to deal with shitty people
*my mom hadn't throw out or made my old concert ticket stubs disappear
*people didn't suddenly change their mind about what they wanted once again
*i didn't hate myself for yet some more stupid ass reasons
*my life didn't completely fucking blow
yeah..... can u tell i'm not having a good day? *cries* god, i'm just go fucking sick of it all. last nite i sat there and just thought about finishing it all off and not caring about anyone. yea it would've been incredibly selfish to hurt myself in such a way that it might've been possible that i wouldn't be sitting here now but whatever i'm just so tired of everything.(and for saying this i know i'm going to get yelled at like 5842307527582527623758327658 times by everyone on the face of the earth but what fucking ever it's how i feel and this is my lj so fuck off if you don't like it) i hate my life and i hate how everything good just goes away all the time for stupid ass reasons. i dont understand people at all and i probably never will and when they do shit like what happened it just makes me not want to associate with anyone.
i can't wait to get away and see stacey. there was a change of plans i'm leaving here saturday afternoon to get to merrick by like seven. so i'll get to spend more time with stacey and that will make me feel better. i know it will. it always does.
i have to go get my holly anne in a little while because we're going to shrewsbury for the free mcr performance/signing. hopefully something that will make me happy but with how i'm feeling right now i'll probably sit there and one of the guys will say something to me and i'll just start to cry. its terrible. i hate being all sobby for no reason (well i actually do have reason but we're not gonna get into that)
this is the plan for the week:
today: see mcr w/ holly anne and then stay at her house
tomorrow: come home in the morning and go to the gram's for the day to swim and such
friday: work 2-10
saturday morning: pack my shit up and load the car
saturday afternoon: leave for my stacey
saturday nite: hang w/ my stacey and nicole and be happy
sunday: merrick w/ stacey & nicole
monday: merrick w/ stacey & nicole
tuesday: merrick w/ stacey & nicole then drive home
i guess i'm just really sick of the male species. i wish they could make up their minds and realize what they want and that they can't change their minds 9 trillion times. :'(
i hate my life...
leave lj love or whatever the fuck you call it...
*i wasn't sick and left work early
*didn't have to deal with shitty people
*my mom hadn't throw out or made my old concert ticket stubs disappear
*people didn't suddenly change their mind about what they wanted once again
*i didn't hate myself for yet some more stupid ass reasons
*my life didn't completely fucking blow
yeah..... can u tell i'm not having a good day? *cries* god, i'm just go fucking sick of it all. last nite i sat there and just thought about finishing it all off and not caring about anyone. yea it would've been incredibly selfish to hurt myself in such a way that it might've been possible that i wouldn't be sitting here now but whatever i'm just so tired of everything.(and for saying this i know i'm going to get yelled at like 5842307527582527623758327658 times by everyone on the face of the earth but what fucking ever it's how i feel and this is my lj so fuck off if you don't like it) i hate my life and i hate how everything good just goes away all the time for stupid ass reasons. i dont understand people at all and i probably never will and when they do shit like what happened it just makes me not want to associate with anyone.
i can't wait to get away and see stacey. there was a change of plans i'm leaving here saturday afternoon to get to merrick by like seven. so i'll get to spend more time with stacey and that will make me feel better. i know it will. it always does.
i have to go get my holly anne in a little while because we're going to shrewsbury for the free mcr performance/signing. hopefully something that will make me happy but with how i'm feeling right now i'll probably sit there and one of the guys will say something to me and i'll just start to cry. its terrible. i hate being all sobby for no reason (well i actually do have reason but we're not gonna get into that)
this is the plan for the week:
today: see mcr w/ holly anne and then stay at her house
tomorrow: come home in the morning and go to the gram's for the day to swim and such
friday: work 2-10
saturday morning: pack my shit up and load the car
saturday afternoon: leave for my stacey
saturday nite: hang w/ my stacey and nicole and be happy
sunday: merrick w/ stacey & nicole
monday: merrick w/ stacey & nicole
tuesday: merrick w/ stacey & nicole then drive home
i guess i'm just really sick of the male species. i wish they could make up their minds and realize what they want and that they can't change their minds 9 trillion times. :'(
i hate my life...
leave lj love or whatever the fuck you call it...