today = suckage
so today sucked, went to jazz band, did that whole thing, personaly i played bad and that makes me feel really bad cause it makes me feel like i let everyone down, on the first song in like the 2nd measure i looked up to see the conducting and i completely forgot what i was doing, 2nd song was fine cause i dont play vibes, and 3rd song i drew a blank on how the song went, and since the part i play with the saxes is just memorized and i just know what to do on that song i basicly just had to remember it really quickly, so i messed up a couple times, then packed everything that we needed into my parents jeep while everyone was in sight reading, they left and i went to go get pictures taken, then we ran out of there and got to drumline just in time, when i say just in time i mean like there were people running to get drums and their uniform on as we were going on to perform, it was hectic, we played bad but personaly i didnt do that bad, got last place, we should do better for champs next week though, we will be more concentrated, then i came home and whatever, holden got lose as i was waiting for josh to come pick me up and i got super pissed at my dad cause he told me and my mom to just let him go and see what happened, he hates that dog and would love if he died, thats why i have a tenfancy to hate my dad, because of his hatred for everything, i love holden and its like my dad doesnt care that its a life, whatever, so i was like pissed when i got into the car and all and then something happened and some people know what but i was stupid and mean and im a bad person and im sorry and thats enough, you know who you are, im still a bad person though, then we went to a show saw 4 sided circle, they were good but all the other bands did too many covers, and the band after them, singing? screaming? im not exactly sure what you call it, im gonna go with high pitched shrieking, not neccisary at all, lol, gene is so 80s and its great, then we went home and that was that and now..... there are a couple things from the past that i want back and wished hadnt changed, and their are a couple people that i wish still thought i was the greatest, it sux going from coolest freshman to bitchyest sophmore