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so.. went to go watch Bruce Almighty today. excellent movie for all those wondering. i like it because its funny. yet inspirational at the same time. its got a good message to it and personally. it made me feel better. alot better actually. i dont know why i never realized it before. but i have (hopefully) alot more control over myself then i say to myself. how do i want things to be? what do i want to happen right here right now? what would make me happy? i think number one is to go camping out on my trampoline. its so nice out tonight. i think with heather. she just would seem like the one who would appreciate it the most with me. i think then i would go somewhere and fall in love. everyone knows im practically obsessed with love. i think its still one of the most honest things a person can do now a days. and even then its still a bit on the corrupted side (people exploiting it) but thats not the point. im gonna be happy today. no cyniclism today. anyways. what kinda person do i want to fall in love with? i dont know if ill ever decide what kind of person would be right for me. maybe once i kind of live a bit more. hmm maybe someone homey, yetstill adventerous, liberal but knows the boundaries. beautiful, but naturally beautiful. someone who loves and enjoys the things i do. someone who i can do the things i love with. not because she has to, but because she wants to. ok now that im done being the cheese factor of the world. what else do i want? i think a bug hug would be wonderful now. oh and hopefully ill be able to get my liscense soon. i want to go do some night time photography. and maybe be the next ansel adams :D wow i think this is the first time ive ever written an entry this long and not have it be the center of my self pity. whose proud? im proud