Letters To You....
Well I still have tons of weight in my heart and its still heavy and like a dam it takes time to repair before it collapses.
She sadi to forget teh whole thing but deep down we both know we can't forget stuff like this and to me itr was a big change.
I feel so lost now I don't know if I really matter much to anyone anymore like seriously matter. Maybe I never did but thast besides the point. She basically forgave me but thats just words because I know her mouth did but how about her heart how do i know thast the real thing were i'm forgaven.
I'll see her monday I won't be online for another week and I am gogint o stop writing in my journal because of this journal its because I have dealt with the worst of problems. Don't pour ur heart into these things unless they are personal cause if you do then they back fire and u'll hate urself twice as much.
My last entry wil be the next one for sure ima stop from now on. adn we all know what my last words will be.
from now on ima just no do anything to anyone and i'll continue to feel unsecure until she tells me what she wanst from me whether it be o leave her alone or continue to follow because really my emotions depend on her and i'm not sure she knows that. funny how in 2 days you realize u love sum1 and u go out of ur way to get to them even thought u know they don't feel that way for you...Its sad but i don't regret what i do like sum1 once told me people do things for a reason whether good or bad all I know is that my heart does good and always has...
I'm done crying but i'm not done thinkigng about her...
GOOGD LUCK....not that you'll need it but its the least i can say have fun...i know my words are the size of a grain of sand to you maybe cause none of it seems to realy affect the way u persieve me...well bye heart out love you
She sadi to forget teh whole thing but deep down we both know we can't forget stuff like this and to me itr was a big change.
I feel so lost now I don't know if I really matter much to anyone anymore like seriously matter. Maybe I never did but thast besides the point. She basically forgave me but thats just words because I know her mouth did but how about her heart how do i know thast the real thing were i'm forgaven.
I'll see her monday I won't be online for another week and I am gogint o stop writing in my journal because of this journal its because I have dealt with the worst of problems. Don't pour ur heart into these things unless they are personal cause if you do then they back fire and u'll hate urself twice as much.
My last entry wil be the next one for sure ima stop from now on. adn we all know what my last words will be.
from now on ima just no do anything to anyone and i'll continue to feel unsecure until she tells me what she wanst from me whether it be o leave her alone or continue to follow because really my emotions depend on her and i'm not sure she knows that. funny how in 2 days you realize u love sum1 and u go out of ur way to get to them even thought u know they don't feel that way for you...Its sad but i don't regret what i do like sum1 once told me people do things for a reason whether good or bad all I know is that my heart does good and always has...
I'm done crying but i'm not done thinkigng about her...
GOOGD LUCK....not that you'll need it but its the least i can say have fun...i know my words are the size of a grain of sand to you maybe cause none of it seems to realy affect the way u persieve me...well bye heart out love you