another subject
i've noticed that my relationships with my friends have had a serious blow to them. I didn't realize how much this depression shit has affected me, i mean i thought it only affected me my thoughts or something but it made me such a horrible person (worse than i am now if u can believe it) and i pushed them away and now that i'm getting out of the whole ordeal, i see it and it kills me to see my friends so distant from me, so far away... i feel really alone now and i guess i really don't have friends now, or any that cared enough to really stick around.