more out of place than anything..
its pretty damn early. woah.
last night emily and amie came with me to my uncles house up in waterboro. it was alright. would have sucked if they wernt there. we played ping pong and took digital camera pictures. i think if i have money left over from this trip il buy one:). so we left around 10 ish and got back to nh around 11, but amie lives in barrinton so we dropped her off and stuff. then we got to emilys house and i had to say bye to her. i may never see her again. but i hope tahts not the case. i lvoe her so much. we hugged and i said bye and stuff. but it was like a normal goodbye. like a see ya later kind of goodbye, it didnt seem like she was moving. i wish it could have been specail or seomthing, but i didnt know what to say. i didnt want to cry and it was really hard not to. so i guess a hug is good enough for me. i really really hope we keep in touch and i can go down and visit her sometime. i love that girl so much and im so glad we became friends. aww :(. emily i love you!!! <3! so after igot back into the car to drive homw from her house i had to fight back the tears. :/. meh..
then i came home and went online. my aunt came home around 12:30 with my cousin. they were both sleeping here becasue we have to leave for the airport today..so yep. and my aunt wanted me to try and get our boarding passes online because i guess you can..and i had tried earlier and the website wouldnt work. so i was like okay il ltry but i dont know how to do it and the website isnt working too great. and she was jus standing here and the website was taking forever and on the little bar at the bottom of webrowser where it shows how much is left to load there was only this much left [ ] and shes like its almost there look. but it wasnt moving for like a whole minute so i said it wasnt going to work. then we said the same thing to eachother like 5 times..and the last time iwas like "it isnt going to work!" and she got all pissed off and was like " well it works just fine for you " and walked off into my livingroom. hah. way to get mad over nothing.
so i stayed up till 1:30ish and then i went to bed. im so happy that during the middle of the night i actually had to throw another blanket on me becuase i was cold:) yayy! i love it when my room is cold. then i get to used 32489237 blankets and cuddle up in them all. (hyperbole).
i woke up pretty early becusae kelly kellie and shawn left of phillidelphia. i wish icould have gone but it figures it was the weekend that i had to leave for cali. if iwent i could have called up mike and hung out with him before the show. :(. i miss him so much . :( i wish we still talked and stuff, but i think ive said that a million times in here before..so i guess you get the idea. i still love him to death. i wonder if he even gives a shit that we dont even really talk anymore? who knows. he probly doesnt even think about it. he is all intothe drug alchol scene. meh. no good. ive watched him change so much in the past 2 years. blah ill shut up.
yeah so i woke up when they left to say bye and stuff.
im hungry..i should probly make some food. im up early enough so i have time to make pancakse, but i think im too lazy for that. i guess ill settle for some lucky charms?
well..i hope my aunt doesnt drive me insane while im out in california. because she sure is doing it here. i guess its differnet while im at her house..because then its okay for her to tell me to do things. but in my house..nope. it makes me mad.
okay i heard this song on the radio yesterday and i know its sort of annoying beacause its been played13128936192 times. but the lyrics reminded me of brandon.
.the.middle.
Hey,
Dont't write your self off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out,
And looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can,
And don't you worry
What they tell themselves when your away.
It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride,
Everything everything will be just fine,
Everything everything will be alright, alright.
Hey,
You know they're all the same,
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in,
Live right now,
Just be yourself,
It doesn't matter if it's good enough,
For someone else.
Hey,
Don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head,
You feel left out,
And looked down on.
Just do your best,
Do everything you can ,
Don't you worry what their bitter hearts,
Are gonna' say
..ove played? yes. but i still enjoy it at monderate consumptions.
<3
last night emily and amie came with me to my uncles house up in waterboro. it was alright. would have sucked if they wernt there. we played ping pong and took digital camera pictures. i think if i have money left over from this trip il buy one:). so we left around 10 ish and got back to nh around 11, but amie lives in barrinton so we dropped her off and stuff. then we got to emilys house and i had to say bye to her. i may never see her again. but i hope tahts not the case. i lvoe her so much. we hugged and i said bye and stuff. but it was like a normal goodbye. like a see ya later kind of goodbye, it didnt seem like she was moving. i wish it could have been specail or seomthing, but i didnt know what to say. i didnt want to cry and it was really hard not to. so i guess a hug is good enough for me. i really really hope we keep in touch and i can go down and visit her sometime. i love that girl so much and im so glad we became friends. aww :(. emily i love you!!! <3! so after igot back into the car to drive homw from her house i had to fight back the tears. :/. meh..
then i came home and went online. my aunt came home around 12:30 with my cousin. they were both sleeping here becasue we have to leave for the airport today..so yep. and my aunt wanted me to try and get our boarding passes online because i guess you can..and i had tried earlier and the website wouldnt work. so i was like okay il ltry but i dont know how to do it and the website isnt working too great. and she was jus standing here and the website was taking forever and on the little bar at the bottom of webrowser where it shows how much is left to load there was only this much left [ ] and shes like its almost there look. but it wasnt moving for like a whole minute so i said it wasnt going to work. then we said the same thing to eachother like 5 times..and the last time iwas like "it isnt going to work!" and she got all pissed off and was like " well it works just fine for you " and walked off into my livingroom. hah. way to get mad over nothing.
so i stayed up till 1:30ish and then i went to bed. im so happy that during the middle of the night i actually had to throw another blanket on me becuase i was cold:) yayy! i love it when my room is cold. then i get to used 32489237 blankets and cuddle up in them all. (hyperbole).
i woke up pretty early becusae kelly kellie and shawn left of phillidelphia. i wish icould have gone but it figures it was the weekend that i had to leave for cali. if iwent i could have called up mike and hung out with him before the show. :(. i miss him so much . :( i wish we still talked and stuff, but i think ive said that a million times in here before..so i guess you get the idea. i still love him to death. i wonder if he even gives a shit that we dont even really talk anymore? who knows. he probly doesnt even think about it. he is all intothe drug alchol scene. meh. no good. ive watched him change so much in the past 2 years. blah ill shut up.
yeah so i woke up when they left to say bye and stuff.
im hungry..i should probly make some food. im up early enough so i have time to make pancakse, but i think im too lazy for that. i guess ill settle for some lucky charms?
well..i hope my aunt doesnt drive me insane while im out in california. because she sure is doing it here. i guess its differnet while im at her house..because then its okay for her to tell me to do things. but in my house..nope. it makes me mad.
okay i heard this song on the radio yesterday and i know its sort of annoying beacause its been played13128936192 times. but the lyrics reminded me of brandon.
.the.middle.
Hey,
Dont't write your self off yet,
It's only in your head you feel left out,
And looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can,
And don't you worry
What they tell themselves when your away.
It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride,
Everything everything will be just fine,
Everything everything will be alright, alright.
Hey,
You know they're all the same,
You know you're doing better on your own,
so don't buy in,
Live right now,
Just be yourself,
It doesn't matter if it's good enough,
For someone else.
Hey,
Don't write yourself off yet,
It's only in your head,
You feel left out,
And looked down on.
Just do your best,
Do everything you can ,
Don't you worry what their bitter hearts,
Are gonna' say
..ove played? yes. but i still enjoy it at monderate consumptions.
<3