when history repeats itself....
she ended it. can't say as I blame her. I always screw it up somehow. I honestly don't know what my major malfunction is. The distance seemed to be the killer this time. I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt like hell though. Luckily, I have a roommate who knows how to treat such matters, with a listening ear and a mug of cold brew. God bless Bill, I don't know if I would make it without him.
A parting note- I do love her. I wish I could have been everything she wanted me to be and more. But I'm not perfect, nor do I claim to be, I have my faults, and I just wasn't enough.
A song dedication for her....(possibly the sweetest I've ever given)
Mike Doughty - Unsingable Name
I want to be your absolute ultimate
Want to be your only one now
Feel the wave come up from your sulkiness
Feel the rays you radiate now
Sweet and plain unsingable name
That rings in my mind now
That strums me like a string
Shine, unsingable name
Over everything
Beware the thrum of hearts in your presence and
Watch the breeze that snaps at you now
All the dogs that bark from the fences and
Everything is wanting for you
Smirk on the face and fists in the clenches and
Make the radiator blow now
Crack the planks and shatter the lenses and
Mix the salt, the sugar and flour
Slushing, sleeting through the blue gloom
Some long bell’s lonely ring
Chime, unsingable name
Over everything
I want to see the mountains in silhouette
Want to split for Singapore now
I want to see the mystery trees
Want to hear the womanly sound
A parting note- I do love her. I wish I could have been everything she wanted me to be and more. But I'm not perfect, nor do I claim to be, I have my faults, and I just wasn't enough.
A song dedication for her....(possibly the sweetest I've ever given)
Mike Doughty - Unsingable Name
I want to be your absolute ultimate
Want to be your only one now
Feel the wave come up from your sulkiness
Feel the rays you radiate now
Sweet and plain unsingable name
That rings in my mind now
That strums me like a string
Shine, unsingable name
Over everything
Beware the thrum of hearts in your presence and
Watch the breeze that snaps at you now
All the dogs that bark from the fences and
Everything is wanting for you
Smirk on the face and fists in the clenches and
Make the radiator blow now
Crack the planks and shatter the lenses and
Mix the salt, the sugar and flour
Slushing, sleeting through the blue gloom
Some long bell’s lonely ring
Chime, unsingable name
Over everything
I want to see the mountains in silhouette
Want to split for Singapore now
I want to see the mystery trees
Want to hear the womanly sound