I hate all of this
i am so sick of hearing about everyone's perfect boyfriend and perfect relationship and how wonderful everything is and all the great things you do together. I am to the poin where i am physically ill over it. yes its wonderful its great but don't you have anything thing in your lives other than that its disgusting and rather pathetic if youve lost your identity because your dating someone. ok ok yes i know it sounds like i'm bitter, i am i admit it, i'm tired and mad and frustrated. I don't want any of my friends with boyfriends to take this as an attack on them, you see what happened is that i got a call from a friend whom i havent seen in about a year and a half, and all she could talk about was her boyfriend, its like she had no substance of her own, and yet she was so happy, crazily happy. I don't want to lose myself but i want to be happy. I havent been really really happy in a while and i want that. I don't know what it is about me, i cant seem to find a guy that i really click with i cant find that person who i feel totally comfortable around. and so far this summer boys have been nothing but bad luck for me. i hate being like this i hate wanting something so petty and silly so badly. me who has always claimed to be an amazon to be so strong and not need anyone else. ok so i don't need anyone i kno i'll be fine on my own no matter what but i still want it. damn it i want someone to care about me too.