The meaning of life and death
So..after hearing of Amy's moms death..I have come to realize a few things about my life and other peoples life. The theory really is simple, but yet so complex. Be greatful for everything you have and every second you are given. Even though the times might be rough, and I am stressed.. I should really be thankful, that I am alive..and well. I feel pretty insginficant right now, sort of meaningless..like I have no explenations for the way things are or how they have been. I want to be able to comfort the people who are hurting right now, but I am sure I have the ability to help..I want to...but I am not sure I can..I dont know if i am emotionally hard or whats wrong with me..I feel like anything I say at this point is going to be selfish and besides the point. I feel like I have real lost touch with my inner serenity and that slowly but surely my mind is just not going to work anymore..And I feel like a worse person, because..I always tell people that if my dad was dead..I would not mind, judge me as you will but sometimes I feel like it would be easier..and I felt that way since I was a little kid, and he was ..well we wont go into that.. but back to the main issue..I am not sure I have faith in the good of the world any more..I have lost it since..everything has happened..and it will never return I think