not too shabby i must say
so im homeless again, but at the same time not really, i was so upset when it all happened, i ran straight to nick and eD, lately they've become closer to me then i realized. but they have let me crash here until i need i guess, i cook for them and clean up after the weekends, it doesnt bother me at all, but i'm very grateful for friends such as these. silis cheated my sister, big drama this weekend no one seemed surprised, but it upset me quite a bit, i like to think of myself as a humanitarian, i gave him the bendfit of the doubt for the sake for maybe him finding some happiness, that kid does not know the meaning of faithful if it hit him in the face, im just sorry my sister had to be sacrificed to understand that. hope he regrets it , which he should. either way whats happened has happened. what can i do? i hope i get my stuff from my house, im glad i got to see carter recently, makes me feel like im getting a friend back, very cool, and my kinda resolution, in that i mean making more friends with girls, is turning out beautifully, im aware ive created alot of barriers and ppl seem to shhy aware from me because of it. but cat,donna and kristy are mighty rad if i do say so myself, evan i love as much as ever( how couldn't i?) and jesse is as confusiong as ever, but im alright with that, i know we are firends and i leave it at that, why make it more confusing then it is right? several friends are moving closer then they were hooray for that fer sure. and hmmm what else, ahh nick and maggie, well i dont get too involved i must say but i just want whats best for him, and he seems happy so its cool. and eD who knows, hes wonderful and im grateful we've become better friends since high school. can't understand why i took so long getting closer to these boys, always knew them just maybe knew what was better for me so i avoided it? who knows, i am good at chaos,thats a fact, here's to the future. haha cant wait