i feel sad
i want back my friends. this is weird, not talking and all, i don't know when it happened, i was just made aware one day. someone says 'oh btw, you're not friends anymore with so and so. hmm. i don't hang out with anyone except Richard now, i should do more stuff. I've been hanging out with my mom. She took me shopping and i went to work with her twice, plus i went over there the night before thanksgiving for dinner. In a weekend that's alot of being around her, since at one point I didn't talk to her for six months. I'm working on getting along with her better. They have an extra bedroom, I kinda want it. We'll see if i convince her to get me a cell phone. I woke up and felt shitty, dunno why. spacey all day since. I'm dropping my CW class as soon as I get signed up for history. I'm going to SHS tomorrow. I had and weird day with carter, still wanna talk about it cause it was strange to me. Kris Branscum seems as quiet as me, weird because I kinda didn't get that empressino from him, although he and carter seemed a little baked when i went down to sumner on sat. yesterday was triva's birthday bash, i didn't go. I didn't do my shift either and on fri steve from kent was here instead of B$, i didn't come either. I need a car. Tana fucked with my entire weekend. I'm mad because she's only doing this because she slipped into finding out me and richard are together, but it was satisfing telling her, she freaked out and is really pissing me off now. I was worried about what that meant for the two of us, but i scared boy and he thought i was gonna take off so he made it plain to her stop trying to stay around. I didn't know where i should stand, i didn't want to say stay away, but of course i don't trust her, i know i can't. things are for the better. I must do more. I have new shoes, and new stuff, I need to start earning $ for x-mas stuff. someone contact me, im lonely and bored. i don't feel like writng more but i should make note that i met sarah, and she's cool.