all mixed up.
i need a real person to talk to. cause the only people i tell everything to are Richard and Carter , and they both kinda take offense if I talk about the other, but as the only two people i tell everything to, it's hard not offending them. whatever though. I wanted to tell brianna first cause i should kinda but instead im posting here, cause i feel like then everybody knows, even though only carter reads my lj. and he only reads it when he won't talk to me. I'm dating Richard. not really a good reason to, but even less reasons why not. He's a best friend, he's always been a solid friend and i do really love him, in what way im not sure, that'll be figured out i assume. I just had a talk with batman, and i get it. I know what he means and it makes sense, but not fair. As he says if a guy asks you out and you turn him down, then he's still looking for more in the relationship and girl is satisfied. why can't we still be friends? why do we have to fight? can we ever get over this?and to throw some poison onto jake's thought, doesn't that kinda mean "I like girl; i'll be friends with girl so girl likes me; i ask girl out; girl say no; if im not getting any, why the hell am I still around?" so is every relationship just a matter of patience, until the ultimate goal in making that connection was made, (which usually is getting laid) and then theres no point anymore? why does it have to be a start to finish thing? ...to be continued