Well, I haven't had a good, long, entry in a long time, so I'll try to do that right now. You guys should feel special because I need to sleep and it's already past midnight
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It seems to me you sort of enjoy running away from your problems. If something you don't like happens, you take it to heart and pretend it's the end of the world, which by the constant state of things is quite insignifcant. I read your LJ. This can't be intrusion because you decided to make this public and therefore I do have a right to comment. What's most puzzling to me is your odd wanted to get drunk, which is obviously going to happen on your spring break trip. After I read what you thought about your mother because of a cancelled trip, I laughed. Travelling is expensive. Try to be in the position of an adult. You strive to make money at a job you don't like. You have kids that crave constant attention who of which you have to house, feed, cloth, and look after. They have car, insurance, water, heating, electricity, and gas bills. They have to look after themselves aswell. Taxes, loaning money, eating out, etc. Money is no object.
But of course, the world is going to end because poor little you can't be given hundreds of dollars. Which leads me back to the drinking. You plan on getting drunk. I'm not stopping you, namely because I probably can't. Of course, being the moody individual you seem to be, you tend to see things in a negative light constantly, and the only way to allieviate that is by guzzling down a substance designed to distract you from problems. You're 14. You have youth and an energy that will gone in four years time. You can't sit here and tell that life is so horrible, that you have to have a drug depress your senses for fun when you are in the most energetic moment of your life.
I guess you ENJOY being this way, because drinking solves nothing. It only lets you escape. An escape that leads to vomiting, bad dancing, and your body trying to reject a poison. Simply because you broke a nail, you want the world to know you can control your thinking, which you obviously don't want to do, considering what alcohol does. If you keep running, how are you going to solve anything? You just wake up the next day, hungover, remembering nothing, missing a ton of money, and being in the same spot you were just twelve hours before. I also find it funny how you're going to Mexico during spring break and you think you're pulling the wall over your parents eyes. If you want that energy from a buzz, all it takes is one piece of chocolate. I've been buzzed, and it's no different than being hyper.
This has been a muddled mess of a post which I, as a writer, can't believe I slopped it together. But I will say this. I have a father who works harder than most people I know with a lousy paycheck. A single father, taking care of bills, and his kids...and he never has time to himself. Even when my brother and I are gone, he's too tired to do anything. He began drinking such as you did because it was popular, and he thought his problems were solidified. His mother was so in shock from his dad dying when he was 12 years old, he bought my father alcohol. So, because of his past...his inability to do anything other than mechanics, he is stuck in a cycle. Works, drinks, sleeps. Over and over. He is drunk every single night. I barely talk to him through no fault of my own. It's partly his back...it's partly from actual problems he has which you absolutely lack...but mostly, it's his attempt to hide the physical and mental pain he suffered because he decided to drink away his little problems.
He's basically dependent on alcohol. He misses his youth, even with no father, his stoner agenda, and a brother who was addicted to steroids. He misses being able to run around and do stupid things because he was youthful enough to do so. There was a time when his innocence was secured and nothing bothered him, and he wishes every day he never threw it away. He regrets getting wasted and stoned and taking speed because it led to his problelms that he has now. And he's only 44. So you go on and drink and act adult and throw away the time in your life that most people over the age of 18 wish they had back, simply because you have itty bitty problems. Imagine what will happen when actual bad things abound.
I do enjoy getting away from my problems once in awhile, is that bad? Life is complicated and I enjoy vacations from it.
And where in any way, shape, or form, did I say I want to get drunk? I didn't see it when I read over the entry. Did I post is somewhere that I've forgotten about? I've never been drunk in my life and I don't plan on getting drunk anytime soon. I hate beer, which is the only thing you can get in Mexico without people being suspicious. My uncle has drinking problems, so I don't have any desire to turn out like him.
My mom let me go on this trip because I got good grades. I didn't get to go on this just because. I worked hard on getting the grades, then my friend invited me to go to Mexico with her and my mom allowed me because I earned it by working hard at school.
This was the most confusing comment I've ever read. It was coming from too many directions for me to follow. I don't want to get drunk, I don't think I said anything about it unless theres some post somewhere that I've forgotten about, I'm going on this trip because I worked for it and achieved one of my personal goals.
You've forgotten then. When I go on a rant, I usually get ahead of myself. I realize my mistake and I will admit I was being inappropriate. A jerk would bitch right back. I apologize. If I offended you, I deeply regret what I said. Even if you don't drink, I still mean what I said however. I humbly back down.
But of course, the world is going to end because poor little you can't be given hundreds of dollars. Which leads me back to the drinking. You plan on getting drunk. I'm not stopping you, namely because I probably can't. Of course, being the moody individual you seem to be, you tend to see things in a negative light constantly, and the only way to allieviate that is by guzzling down a substance designed to distract you from problems. You're 14. You have youth and an energy that will gone in four years time. You can't sit here and tell that life is so horrible, that you have to have a drug depress your senses for fun when you are in the most energetic moment of your life.
I guess you ENJOY being this way, because drinking solves nothing. It only lets you escape. An escape that leads to vomiting, bad dancing, and your body trying to reject a poison. Simply because you broke a nail, you want the world to know you can control your thinking, which you obviously don't want to do, considering what alcohol does. If you keep running, how are you going to solve anything? You just wake up the next day, hungover, remembering nothing, missing a ton of money, and being in the same spot you were just twelve hours before. I also find it funny how you're going to Mexico during spring break and you think you're pulling the wall over your parents eyes. If you want that energy from a buzz, all it takes is one piece of chocolate. I've been buzzed, and it's no different than being hyper.
This has been a muddled mess of a post which I, as a writer, can't believe I slopped it together. But I will say this. I have a father who works harder than most people I know with a lousy paycheck. A single father, taking care of bills, and his kids...and he never has time to himself. Even when my brother and I are gone, he's too tired to do anything. He began drinking such as you did because it was popular, and he thought his problems were solidified. His mother was so in shock from his dad dying when he was 12 years old, he bought my father alcohol. So, because of his past...his inability to do anything other than mechanics, he is stuck in a cycle. Works, drinks, sleeps. Over and over. He is drunk every single night. I barely talk to him through no fault of my own. It's partly his back...it's partly from actual problems he has which you absolutely lack...but mostly, it's his attempt to hide the physical and mental pain he suffered because he decided to drink away his little problems.
He's basically dependent on alcohol. He misses his youth, even with no father, his stoner agenda, and a brother who was addicted to steroids. He misses being able to run around and do stupid things because he was youthful enough to do so. There was a time when his innocence was secured and nothing bothered him, and he wishes every day he never threw it away. He regrets getting wasted and stoned and taking speed because it led to his problelms that he has now. And he's only 44. So you go on and drink and act adult and throw away the time in your life that most people over the age of 18 wish they had back, simply because you have itty bitty problems. Imagine what will happen when actual bad things abound.
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And where in any way, shape, or form, did I say I want to get drunk? I didn't see it when I read over the entry. Did I post is somewhere that I've forgotten about? I've never been drunk in my life and I don't plan on getting drunk anytime soon. I hate beer, which is the only thing you can get in Mexico without people being suspicious. My uncle has drinking problems, so I don't have any desire to turn out like him.
My mom let me go on this trip because I got good grades. I didn't get to go on this just because. I worked hard on getting the grades, then my friend invited me to go to Mexico with her and my mom allowed me because I earned it by working hard at school.
This was the most confusing comment I've ever read. It was coming from too many directions for me to follow. I don't want to get drunk, I don't think I said anything about it unless theres some post somewhere that I've forgotten about, I'm going on this trip because I worked for it and achieved one of my personal goals.
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You've forgotten then. When I go on a rant, I usually get ahead of myself. I realize my mistake and I will admit I was being inappropriate. A jerk would bitch right back. I apologize. If I offended you, I deeply regret what I said. Even if you don't drink, I still mean what I said however. I humbly back down.
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