AWFUL day!
You know it tears me up inside
to see the feelings that you hide
Hide inside that empty bottle
I wish you saw how great you were
I wish you saw what life was worth
You wouldn't have to hide your problems
And I don't care what you might think
I think you've had too much to drink
Can't even talk when you're this way
Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today
There's so much out there you could miss
there's so much life out there to live
If you would just believe in yourself
You know you're better than all of this
you know you've got so much to give
But you're so afraid to give of yourself
There's a bright light shining inside you
it shines out through your eyes
Don't drown it away, don't be afraid, don't hide
Let it shine
You say you're looking for happiness
but when it comes, you run away from it
You tell yourself you don't deserve it
There's not much more that I can do now the rest is up to you
Until you love yourself, you'll never change
You'll keep on running
Until you deal with today
So listening to this song adn talking to my cousin/best firend Doug is the only reaosn i havent' picked up the scissors or knife or pills yet. I got fucked over hard core with RHA today...yea the e-board positon i was nominated for i didnt get. And the person who got it doesnt even deserve it. THey havent put half the work into this organization that i have. The deciding factor was the fact that yea i wasnt sober at ROcktoberfest and i apologized for it months ago when it happened. Apprently no one cared that I did everything ot make that show awesome. Including paying one of the bands out of my pocket to do sound becuase the set up committee was to lazy to go find the schools pa system. And the conferences i've gone too and ties i've made with other schools should make it obvious that i deserve that spot. But whatever people are fucking stupid and turn everything into a popularity contest. I worked hard and that's all that matters.
It just sucks because everything i've tried to get while i've been here has gone ot someone else and i hate it. Nothing ever seems to go my way and for once i would like it too. Who knows if it ever will though....and the fact that I've had a few beers tongiht isnt making me feel any better but actually it's making me feel worse. I just absolutly hate myslef right now....
.:Allison:.
to see the feelings that you hide
Hide inside that empty bottle
I wish you saw how great you were
I wish you saw what life was worth
You wouldn't have to hide your problems
And I don't care what you might think
I think you've had too much to drink
Can't even talk when you're this way
Run away, run away
But that won't make it any better
Run away, run away
And make tomorrow harder to live than today
There's so much out there you could miss
there's so much life out there to live
If you would just believe in yourself
You know you're better than all of this
you know you've got so much to give
But you're so afraid to give of yourself
There's a bright light shining inside you
it shines out through your eyes
Don't drown it away, don't be afraid, don't hide
Let it shine
You say you're looking for happiness
but when it comes, you run away from it
You tell yourself you don't deserve it
There's not much more that I can do now the rest is up to you
Until you love yourself, you'll never change
You'll keep on running
Until you deal with today
So listening to this song adn talking to my cousin/best firend Doug is the only reaosn i havent' picked up the scissors or knife or pills yet. I got fucked over hard core with RHA today...yea the e-board positon i was nominated for i didnt get. And the person who got it doesnt even deserve it. THey havent put half the work into this organization that i have. The deciding factor was the fact that yea i wasnt sober at ROcktoberfest and i apologized for it months ago when it happened. Apprently no one cared that I did everything ot make that show awesome. Including paying one of the bands out of my pocket to do sound becuase the set up committee was to lazy to go find the schools pa system. And the conferences i've gone too and ties i've made with other schools should make it obvious that i deserve that spot. But whatever people are fucking stupid and turn everything into a popularity contest. I worked hard and that's all that matters.
It just sucks because everything i've tried to get while i've been here has gone ot someone else and i hate it. Nothing ever seems to go my way and for once i would like it too. Who knows if it ever will though....and the fact that I've had a few beers tongiht isnt making me feel any better but actually it's making me feel worse. I just absolutly hate myslef right now....
.:Allison:.