I am such a bad livejournal person...
It has been soo long! I am sorry, not that anyone even cares but i feel really badly about it!
Anyway life back at UP in general sucks cause the work is hard, and I am qustioning my major... but i am sure those questions will answer themselves... or i hope they will.
right now there is something in my life that is keeping me really happy and i just really hope that it continues. here is my problem though. I cant get too excited or attached cause it probably wont work out. I may be an optimist, but I have low selfesteem. There is really something to living in the moment and savoring it though. So if it does fall to pieces then i can still remember how great it was.
Do any of you think that that is enough or even possibe? I dont know if you can have moments that are completely separate from others. Like if a night was wonderful for me, but then it doesnt work out will my wonderful memory be tainted by the failure of the possiblity? Im not sure. I hope not. This isnt a mistake i want to learn from. I just want it go right for once. but it probably wont cause its me lol so i will keep you posted.
Anyway life back at UP in general sucks cause the work is hard, and I am qustioning my major... but i am sure those questions will answer themselves... or i hope they will.
right now there is something in my life that is keeping me really happy and i just really hope that it continues. here is my problem though. I cant get too excited or attached cause it probably wont work out. I may be an optimist, but I have low selfesteem. There is really something to living in the moment and savoring it though. So if it does fall to pieces then i can still remember how great it was.
Do any of you think that that is enough or even possibe? I dont know if you can have moments that are completely separate from others. Like if a night was wonderful for me, but then it doesnt work out will my wonderful memory be tainted by the failure of the possiblity? Im not sure. I hope not. This isnt a mistake i want to learn from. I just want it go right for once. but it probably wont cause its me lol so i will keep you posted.