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I've been in really deep thought the past few days... and more so when JJ asked me this question... "What is your priority?" And for the first time ever... I didn't know. I've always known what my priorities were, even when I was really little. Whether it was school, or sports, or whatever seemed to be big in my life at the time. But yesterday.. that was a different story. I didn't know where my priority layed. I knew it wasn't in school because I haven't really invested my time into studying or any of that. It wasn't really sports because the season is coming to an end and we only have one more tournament and we're done, so I haven't been much into that. It hasn't been friends, or family, or a guy... it hasn't been any of those things. I could of only hoped it was in God, but in all honesty, it wasn't. I hate to say it, but I haven't been as focused or in depth as I should. Devo's and stuff that I've been doing, hasn't really been relaying back to me like it usually does.. it was just, well, there. I never thought I would get to a place in my walk with God where I would say, "I'm not listening" but I have. Last night, I just pondered. I thought about my future, I thought about my children, I thought about the man I will marry, I thought about it all. I desperately sought answers, and each and every time I thought I had one, I ended up right where I started. You know why? Because I stopped letting God do it all and started letting 'Tiffany' take control. I blocked him out, all because I didn't think it was important for him to deal with one or two issues, but you know what... It's ALL about HIM. And as long as it has taken me to completely realize that... I have. I was really discouraged for the past month or so... just because JJ was preaching a series of messages called "Created to Worship".. and I didn't see anyone truly worshiping, I didn't see anyone taking to heart the words he was speaking, but you know what... it was me all along, who didn't want to hear it. I thought, "Oh, I'm Miss Spiritual, I can do everything on my own, and I don't need God to lead me in worship, I just need myself" and boy was I wrong. I've definitely realized I will NEVER be able to do ANYTHING on my own. HE is what my life should be all about, not ME. I definitely thank everyone for being there for me, and sticking with me through my tough times and what not, but you know... I just thank God. For helping me to realize what I was doing wrong, and to show me that even in tough times, I should praise him, because indeed goodness will come from it. That's my little tid bit for the day. I'll close with this one question for you guys.... and you can post an answer if you please, but let me ask you this... Where are you right now? Who's really running your life? Is it God, or are you trying to take control? Where ever you may be today, just know that no matter how far you've fallen, or how hard you've hit the ground, Jesus is always going to be there to pick you up, it's a matter of are YOU willing to let him? I'm out.
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My favorite song right now... it's called Rainy Day by Big Dismal.. it was a song inspired by the film 'The Passion of the Christ'... check it out. <3
http://www.passionsongs.com/ and then click whatever thing you need to in that box for "Rainy Day" - By Big Dismal... Good stuff. <3
On a rainy day
I feel like I can change the world
Cause somehow I know that it's all gonna be alright
And on a rainy day
I can feel my heart beating
And I can taste the tears falling from the sky
On a rainy day
(won't You come and save the world?)
On a rainy day
(I know You're looking down on me)
Love
It keeps us hanging on
Even when all hope is gone
I believe that Your love rains down on me
Faith
It carries us away
It takes us to a place
Far above this world
And I can see you in the clouds
On a rainy day
On a rainy day
I feel like I'm in tune
And I can clearly see how much I have to lose
And on a rainy day
I feel like I am free
Cause I know You did it all to rescue me
On a rainy day
(won't You come and save the world?)
On a rainy day
(I know You're looking down on me)
Love
It keeps us hanging on
Even when all hope is gone
I believe that Your love rains down on me
Faith
It carries us away
It takes us to a place
Far above this world
And I can see you in the clouds
On a rainy day
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world for You and me?
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world for You and me?
Love
It keeps us hanging on
Even when all hope is gone
I believe that Your love rains down on me
Faith
It carries us away
It takes us to a place
Far above this world
And I can see you in the clouds, yeah
Like a rainbow shining down
On a rainy day
Yeah, on a rainy day
On a rainy day
(Won't You come and save the world?)
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My favorite song right now... it's called Rainy Day by Big Dismal.. it was a song inspired by the film 'The Passion of the Christ'... check it out. <3
http://www.passionsongs.com/ and then click whatever thing you need to in that box for "Rainy Day" - By Big Dismal... Good stuff. <3
On a rainy day
I feel like I can change the world
Cause somehow I know that it's all gonna be alright
And on a rainy day
I can feel my heart beating
And I can taste the tears falling from the sky
On a rainy day
(won't You come and save the world?)
On a rainy day
(I know You're looking down on me)
Love
It keeps us hanging on
Even when all hope is gone
I believe that Your love rains down on me
Faith
It carries us away
It takes us to a place
Far above this world
And I can see you in the clouds
On a rainy day
On a rainy day
I feel like I'm in tune
And I can clearly see how much I have to lose
And on a rainy day
I feel like I am free
Cause I know You did it all to rescue me
On a rainy day
(won't You come and save the world?)
On a rainy day
(I know You're looking down on me)
Love
It keeps us hanging on
Even when all hope is gone
I believe that Your love rains down on me
Faith
It carries us away
It takes us to a place
Far above this world
And I can see you in the clouds
On a rainy day
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world for You and me?
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world?
Won't You come and save the world for You and me?
Love
It keeps us hanging on
Even when all hope is gone
I believe that Your love rains down on me
Faith
It carries us away
It takes us to a place
Far above this world
And I can see you in the clouds, yeah
Like a rainbow shining down
On a rainy day
Yeah, on a rainy day
On a rainy day
(Won't You come and save the world?)