rabble rabble rabble
got a lovely call from steve today. he is through with me apparently. but riddle me this were we not already broken up and moving on? i guess when he breaks up with people he has to do it twice bc he forgot. I am being an emo kid about the fact he won't be my friend. i think it is so dumb to spend a year and 1/2 with some one and not slavage any kind of relationship. I cant just not be apart of his life. with the moving on I want a normal relationship for once or at least as normal as it can get. I am not gonna go looking for one but it one happens to find me i would be okay with that. Honestly I'd prolly be open to a lot of things. I know there are so many other "fish in the sea" and maybe one out there thinks i'm the perfect girl or something. I do know I need a change in life. I need someone who loves me for me and respacts my beliefs and decsions bc in the end thats all i have to fall back on other then amazing friends who are really awesome and are there when i need to rant or have my back. I love them a lot. It stinks to be away from them but its okay bc i will visit them soon. I dunno what i would do without my friends. Thank you for caring.