pictures and music
isnt it craZy how when you listen to music it just opens your eyes. Maybe its the pictures with contaigouse smiles , or maybe its the verve pipe telling you how life is bittersweet, or maybe its the chance at getting a free glance at the ones you care about the most in your life just as you hear that lyric re-creates the memory of the moment the photo was taken....But who would of known that the smile on one guys face could make my heart race so fast, yet so slow at the same time. I wish I knew the answer. But one thing I do knoe is that the feeling I feel with him is not a feeling I feel with people every day. He is the best friend I have right now, and beleive me I have some pretty good friends right now, Jeni, Carly, Thia, Cortnet, Jon, Rc, Brad , Mat and so many more then i can count..and i can count pretty high!...None of them can compare to him. Some people even think im craZy but he tells me its ok. I love the fact he even trusts me with his secrets. I love even the fact that he can listen to me ramble...Secretly I dont think he knoes but i ramble when i get nervouse.. i mean im not nervouse around him but i do get scared i will say something stupid, but then i end up doing it (saying something stupid that is) The best part is he never seems to mind, if anything he will laugh with me as he calls me a dork. :) ...I just dont get wherre i went right with him...i mean i am myself with him, but isnt that a scary thing, i mean shouldnt it scare him away....I will be the 1st to admit that thy true self is a little craZy ...For crying out loud I saw the ITSY_BITSY spider song as a motivational song of never giving up :-S (weird eh?) ..as my school counclor puts it, i have a "creative mind" and dont get me wrong i love that and so much more about myself, but the fact that he likes it to is the best feeling in the world....Right now i wish i could just give him the biggest hug ever...i compare every guy to him as well...i feel if ur not him your not any good for me...i hope he calls soon so i can listen to his stories of the day and he can tell me how his day was and i pray it went well for him....i could listen for hours at a time of his stories and that would give me another reason to be proud of him for makeing it through...He saved me, he trully did...but i am gonna go for now and look at pictures of the boy with the amazeing smile...and evan is da bomb hahahahaaaaaa.....(evan put that)