its not a side effect of the cocaine
well hello, livejournal.
i got a letter from john today from jail, dont know what to make of it really.
i havent slept more than 3 hours a night in approx. a week and a half.
found out on friday that my grandpa has lymphatic cancer, 3 weeks-2 months.
my uncle is in the hospital in florida dying slowly of hepatitis.
ive missed entirely too much class in the last 2 weeks and i only have a few more weeks to go.
i miss my best friend so fucking much i actually ache inside.
im making a ridiculous amount of money and it just seems to be disapearing.
however, im going to raleigh this weekend to see my grandpa and spend time with my sister and nephew, which should help me feel somewhat better.
getting out of this city always makes me feel better.
on a good note, ive realized that i can make 400 or so closing bar mon-thur, and by that point i hit overtime anyway so from now on that will be my new schedule, giving me all weekends off.
hoorah.
i am desperately in need of something to be happy about, something new and exciting to hold my attention and keep me motivated. bleh.
how much do you love me?
i got a letter from john today from jail, dont know what to make of it really.
i havent slept more than 3 hours a night in approx. a week and a half.
found out on friday that my grandpa has lymphatic cancer, 3 weeks-2 months.
my uncle is in the hospital in florida dying slowly of hepatitis.
ive missed entirely too much class in the last 2 weeks and i only have a few more weeks to go.
i miss my best friend so fucking much i actually ache inside.
im making a ridiculous amount of money and it just seems to be disapearing.
however, im going to raleigh this weekend to see my grandpa and spend time with my sister and nephew, which should help me feel somewhat better.
getting out of this city always makes me feel better.
on a good note, ive realized that i can make 400 or so closing bar mon-thur, and by that point i hit overtime anyway so from now on that will be my new schedule, giving me all weekends off.
hoorah.
i am desperately in need of something to be happy about, something new and exciting to hold my attention and keep me motivated. bleh.
how much do you love me?