i used to live alone before i knew you.

[punkpixie108]

one last long haul today, and this paper
should finally be finished-- all of my
loose ends from last semester put to rest.

outside is gorgeous.
i don't care if it's freezing.
i'm leaving the windows wide open.

i can't wait to get to marlborooooooo.
jesus f-ing christ, i am ready to go back home.

and when i go, home will be there waiting
for the first time in over a year.
eric and sharon are both going to be in vermont.

nothing's ever going to be the same
as it was in that first year,
some essential pieces of my family
puzzle will be in other places,
living other, beautiful lives.

still. i'm feeling good about this next semester.
so, so, so, so, so good.
it hurts like hell, how good i feel.

...

love is not a victory march.
it's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah.

hallelujah