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Today went from good to bad to worse to good again. Very odd.
Like in gym it was halarious! Kim- Cory why are you afraid of a little ball Cory- Cuz I don't want ball to ball contact.
Lol halarious he ended up getting kicked in the nuts any way so we were making a bunch of stupid jokes it was fun.
Lunch is when it started going bad. I don't think I can say what happened or what she did but it just upset me. I told her I'd help her out and I gave her a hug and right when I gave her a hug I almost started crying. I went back to Language arts and like practically ran to band. The instument closet was locked so I went to my seat. Jordan came over he asked if I was upset. i told him no and faked a smile. Alissa came over and gave Eric a hug and then was next to my seat looking at me. Alissa gave me and jordan a hug and jordan started petting her hand. Somehow Eric saw through my smile and asked me if I was ok. I told him I was fine and he said thats a bunch of bull shit. So I told him shh since I didn't want eveyone knowing I was upset. We went outside to the football field for band. I walked there with Shawn. He asked me if I knew about sutin and I was like yea. He said she didn't want to talk about it. I told him well maybe she thinks you don't understand. he told me this story and it was real touching. But I can't post it since it was his own personal buisness. He told me that she told him i cut and i said i'm working on it. He told me don't work on stopping suceed. He asked me why and i said i was dealing with alot. He said so is she. I told him it was completely different. i told him that i was getting a letter from my bio mom. He left and I started walking to where I had to go. I started crying on the way. Shawn walked with me and asked if I was ok. So I got done with band and I packed up my instrument and left. Val took some of Mr. Pipers candy that was for the lil kids. He was really mad. but val didn't confess. I went to my locker and onto the bus. Eric sat next to me and on the way home i came so close to cutting. I had the blade on the back of my leg but then my stop came up. I went home and relaxed a lil and called eric. i told him what happened and i talked to him a bit. he makes me feel so much better without even trying. He was stuffing a bird and it was wicked funny talking on the phone. He said next time i can watch him hack up the bird. Fun fun. Jordan came over we had a cigg and then i went home he went to chelseys. I tried doing my homework. I still have a billion things to do. I took a shower and called chelsey to see whats up. And now I am being kicked off the computer cuz of my stupid little cry baby brother.