I need someone to hold me tight and tell me everythings alright
Today I woke up really late. I woke up at 6:34 and i am suppose to leave at 6:30 for the bus. i got ready in like 2 minutes. Go me! and I made the bus. Gym was so amusing today we played crab soccer and some other weird soccer it was so funny. Science I worked on my egg drop project. Language arts boring. Before lunch I gave Eric a note. On the bus pretty boring me and Eric talked a bit. We were also talking about Megans party. I think now it is on Sunday. First Eric said he was probably going to go and now he says hes probably not. And if he's not going I don't want to go. I'll probably go on Sunday see who is there and then depending on how I am feeling or who is there I'll probably leave early. I mean its getting closer and closer to November and if during the party my mind is on Cindy and if no one is there to keep me in check I really don't want to have a break down in the middle of this. Thats the only reason I might not go. i mean if Eric isn't going, or alana, or raquel or even KC then basically i have no one there I truely like and trust so whats the point in going. Well anywho. I went to my orthodontist appt. Came home called Megan and figured out who some of the guests were. Called Eric talked to him. near the end of the convo I like stared at my razor for like 10 min and I came so close to making a cut but then Eric said something and I jumped and snapped out of it. I asked him if he would get mad at me if I cut even with all thats going on he said he'd still get angry which totally sucks cuz I really don't want him mad at me. This sucks.