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I had an Okay day. It was pretty fine, during art i drew a picture and i didn't exactly want anyone to see it since it was kind of disturbing i guess is the word. Well so i go to E period and I working on it at lunch and Eric wants to see it. I told him no maybe later, he kept trying to sneak peeks. So after lunch and I went back to class. afterward I decided to show him. Since he wouldn't leave me alone other wize. So I gave it to him and walked off ahead of him since I didn't exactly want him to see it. I hate showing any of my work they always end up thinking i'm like suicidal or crazy and they are personal to me. So I walked ahead of him. And he puts his arm around me and says i'm trying. I wrote "Save me" in the back round. So I guess i looked kind of upset or something so he gave me back the pic and asked me if I was okay. I just said fine and then went to see alana. During band while we were marching we wern't suppose to play during touch me and I guess a couple trupets were and so was eric. they kind of singled him out so he was really pissed off. So we were talking on the way up to our classes. World History i feel asleep in, so did val. Went home talked to my mom about my mom cindy. About all the shit she did and the problems she had. and she was describing depression and it sounded so much like how i felt and she doesn't think i have depression even though i kno i do. Cindy has it. So afterward i went in my room i punched my wall and started crying. I hate talking about cindy i hate how she made me this fucked up. i'm not blaming it all on her but part of it is her fault. So then i called eric talked to him a lil bit. Then went to chelseys helped with dinner and hung out with them and jordan since he was there. My sister is over here now and everyone is hanging in the kitchen. oh and Chelsey's nefew adian is home. I'm happy that he is. So now i'm goin to hang out with kellie before she leaves.