Entry #382- Now I think I'm ready to bust a move
Ahah! I have figured it out.
It's not that I don't want a boyfriend. And it's not that I don't have time.
It's that Allison and I always share our mental diseases and menstrual problems.
I am afraid of commitment. Consoling Hunter and trying to help him through this has made me realise that I don't have any inclination whatsoever to put myself back in a position where I have a remote possibility of getting hurt like that again. Not now.
I want to just fastforward my life to a year from now. I want to be at the University of Iowa. I want to be distracted with trying to figure out how to deal with college. I want to suffer from lack of sleep because of work and homework and school. I want to go to football games and subsequently end up covered in beer. I want to be done with high school and all of it's bullshit. I want new bullshit to deal with. This is all far too repetitive for my likings.
And now it is time for me to sleep, for sleep is the next best thing to fastforwarding my life to college.
Manda
It's not that I don't want a boyfriend. And it's not that I don't have time.
It's that Allison and I always share our mental diseases and menstrual problems.
I am afraid of commitment. Consoling Hunter and trying to help him through this has made me realise that I don't have any inclination whatsoever to put myself back in a position where I have a remote possibility of getting hurt like that again. Not now.
I want to just fastforward my life to a year from now. I want to be at the University of Iowa. I want to be distracted with trying to figure out how to deal with college. I want to suffer from lack of sleep because of work and homework and school. I want to go to football games and subsequently end up covered in beer. I want to be done with high school and all of it's bullshit. I want new bullshit to deal with. This is all far too repetitive for my likings.
And now it is time for me to sleep, for sleep is the next best thing to fastforwarding my life to college.
Manda