Entry #723- I used to obsess over living, now I only obsess over you
My ability to create fully-blown other world fantasies with boys that I haven't said more than 10 words to has not died. I thought it had. I didn't really miss it much. ... But now, I spend half of my waking time off in some other land where boys come and sweep me off my feet and are perfect, even though their real counterparts are no where near perfect and will never scoop me up and ride me off into the sunset.
Not that my day-dream-esque experiences are anywhere near perfect. They're actually more realistic than a knight-in-shining-armor tale, but they're totally unrealistic in the fact that these boys are probably no where near who I am creating them to be.
And yes, that is a plural "boys"... because I am feeling so starved of a boyfriend that I am crushing (if you can call it that) on multiple boys. And it's totally retarded. And I know that. But it's also addicting.
I didn't get the Panic! CD today, and I'm sort of sad. Not really though, because I know I'll get it soon, even if I have to wait until after I get my paycheck. But I also need to save some of my paycheck for the Nintendo Fusion Tour, because I can already tell you that I will want to buy many, many things there.
I have to do story ideas tonight. I can BS my way through the rest of them... but are there any good sports-related things that you guys would be interested in knowing more about? I would love you forever if you helped me. Like literally forever.
Yeah... dinner time now. Then dance. And then homework. And then a power nap, because I don't sleep long enough to call it sleep anymore.
Manda
Having sex is out. Stealing a boy's virginity via another boy is totally in. Especially if the virginity is represented by a cow.
Not that my day-dream-esque experiences are anywhere near perfect. They're actually more realistic than a knight-in-shining-armor tale, but they're totally unrealistic in the fact that these boys are probably no where near who I am creating them to be.
And yes, that is a plural "boys"... because I am feeling so starved of a boyfriend that I am crushing (if you can call it that) on multiple boys. And it's totally retarded. And I know that. But it's also addicting.
I didn't get the Panic! CD today, and I'm sort of sad. Not really though, because I know I'll get it soon, even if I have to wait until after I get my paycheck. But I also need to save some of my paycheck for the Nintendo Fusion Tour, because I can already tell you that I will want to buy many, many things there.
I have to do story ideas tonight. I can BS my way through the rest of them... but are there any good sports-related things that you guys would be interested in knowing more about? I would love you forever if you helped me. Like literally forever.
Yeah... dinner time now. Then dance. And then homework. And then a power nap, because I don't sleep long enough to call it sleep anymore.
Manda
Having sex is out. Stealing a boy's virginity via another boy is totally in. Especially if the virginity is represented by a cow.