Entry #711- The sun is gone, the nights are long, and I am left while the tears fall
I'm putting myself on probation from looking at entries from this time last year. Do you know what was happening this time last year? Well I do. And it makes me upset. I forced myself not to really read anything, but there's this weird knot in my stomach now. And I don't like it.
I don't know why I do this to myself. It's like picking at a scab, just on the brink of healing and then you rip it off an let it bleed some more.
*inward glaring*
Everyone is sick lately... and when I mean sick, I don't mean like the average common cold that just kind of wears you out a little but you're still mostly yourself. No, I mean the full out borderline-angsty type of sickness, where people who are normally bright and cheery are all moody and dark. Annd... I don't like it. They should all get better, mostly for their sakes, because if it's effecting them that much- damn. That's quite the sickness. Pray that I don't get it.
Another episode in the life of Amanda when being complimented makes me go all retarded and bashful. I really seriously do not have the slightest clue how to respond to positive comments about myself or my work. Moreso myself than my work... but still. It's like this weird problem. I really appreciate it on the inside but really haven't the slightest clue how to react. It's awful times a billion.
We started reading The Canterbury Tales (again) in English... we're reading most of the same ones we read sophomore year... and it's lightyears easier to read than I remember. Which either means that the textbook has a simplified version of it or I've just gotten smarter. For my sake, we'll pretend it's the latter. I should get on reading the prologue... it's pretty big and I have to have it read by wednesday.
I totally fell in love with Lucky Boys Confusion this morning. Not the same way as FOB, but they're still really good. And while I'm on the topic of good bands... there's this particularly good band on myspace that Allison found (or they found her? I don't remember)... anyways, go check out Landen Falls, because they deserve more attention then they're getting. :)
In other news- myspace isn't working, which is making me crazy. I'm sort of compulsive in the fact that there are about 5 sites that I check on a daily basis and myspace is one of them.
Has it ever occurred to anyone else how really quite ironic the term "god complex" is?
Manda
57 days to the Nintendo Fusion Tour
I don't know why I do this to myself. It's like picking at a scab, just on the brink of healing and then you rip it off an let it bleed some more.
*inward glaring*
Everyone is sick lately... and when I mean sick, I don't mean like the average common cold that just kind of wears you out a little but you're still mostly yourself. No, I mean the full out borderline-angsty type of sickness, where people who are normally bright and cheery are all moody and dark. Annd... I don't like it. They should all get better, mostly for their sakes, because if it's effecting them that much- damn. That's quite the sickness. Pray that I don't get it.
Another episode in the life of Amanda when being complimented makes me go all retarded and bashful. I really seriously do not have the slightest clue how to respond to positive comments about myself or my work. Moreso myself than my work... but still. It's like this weird problem. I really appreciate it on the inside but really haven't the slightest clue how to react. It's awful times a billion.
We started reading The Canterbury Tales (again) in English... we're reading most of the same ones we read sophomore year... and it's lightyears easier to read than I remember. Which either means that the textbook has a simplified version of it or I've just gotten smarter. For my sake, we'll pretend it's the latter. I should get on reading the prologue... it's pretty big and I have to have it read by wednesday.
I totally fell in love with Lucky Boys Confusion this morning. Not the same way as FOB, but they're still really good. And while I'm on the topic of good bands... there's this particularly good band on myspace that Allison found (or they found her? I don't remember)... anyways, go check out Landen Falls, because they deserve more attention then they're getting. :)
In other news- myspace isn't working, which is making me crazy. I'm sort of compulsive in the fact that there are about 5 sites that I check on a daily basis and myspace is one of them.
Has it ever occurred to anyone else how really quite ironic the term "god complex" is?
Manda
57 days to the Nintendo Fusion Tour