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Life Summary at the moment...
Why do i even bother with u, ur such a small small person, i got outa my way too help you, and u keep fucken closing me out of ur life, all im trying too do is fucken help you, coz im the only one who can, u make me so fucken angry and frustrated, and if i could cut you off from me right now i would, but as u said im too much of a fucken sucker too do that, im too good a person... Im wrapped around ur lil finger... FUCK YOU!!!
Asif i dont have enough keeping me up at night atm that i have to endure ur selfish lil world well mine seems to constantly fall down around me, and then rebuild. Theres one strong thing in my life at the moment, and thats Madeline, yet u find the need to constantly bag her and tell me how shes fucking me around and i should be treated better. I dont know if anyones told u, but she loves me, she at least tells me so, and god damn i hope its tru, i know it is, i feel it, y does it always have too be about u, u fucken bag the one person who has ever truely cared for me that isnt a family member, and its all becoz ur so damn jelous and u believe my life should still revolve around you!! Fuck You! Don't u realise ur the one whon fucked me around, u fucked me over, if it wasnt for Madeline id probably be dead in a ditch somewhere! She saved me emotionally, another thing ive told her. You fucken destroyed me, and shes picked me up, brushed me off, an given me something too believe in, a belife in love, a beliefe in me and her, in us, and all u can do my short, self centred friend is bag her, and i fucken hate you for that.
I cant wait to wash my hands of u, coz until u swalloww that fucken reality pill u lil bitch i dont want anything too do with u after this. And the sad thing is its still this worry abt ur problem that keeps me tossing and turning till fucken 4 am. I hate you, Stop bagging the person who saved me. The only person who has ever loved me, and who i will ever truely love. Since u told me that thing abt 2 months ago, my lifes been a fucken mess, just swallow ur useless fucken pride and tell me the answer, let sort it out and then i can try and re-build what was my perfect life which has fallen into complete and utter chaos since u came bak into it wit this lil fucken revalation.
Leave Maddy out of it, u dont know how much i love her, i dont think even she does sometimes, but thats not the point, she still loves me bak, no matter what where going through, which by the way, is none of ur buisness. Just tell me and then leave me the fuck alone. I love my girlfriend and ur petty lil life isnt gunna fuck it up. Not like u have fucked up the last two months of my life.
Too everyone who had too read this i am sorry, but i've been botteling my feelings and im sick of it, i felt like i was going to explode. Its hurt me and my relationships. Both family, friends and the one i love.
I sware, i will try to be a better person. Maddy, i found a reason for me, to change who i used too be, thats still you babe, i know im clinging atm, but its just coz of the shit in my life atm, see above for full details, and it feels like ur the only one there. I love you so much and your help too me through the entire time ive known you will never be forgotten. I love you.
I love you all, EXCEPT MY LIL PROBLEM OF CORSE!
Peace out Rollers.
Love Adrian Brian Stanley Brennan
Life Summary at the moment...
Why do i even bother with u, ur such a small small person, i got outa my way too help you, and u keep fucken closing me out of ur life, all im trying too do is fucken help you, coz im the only one who can, u make me so fucken angry and frustrated, and if i could cut you off from me right now i would, but as u said im too much of a fucken sucker too do that, im too good a person... Im wrapped around ur lil finger... FUCK YOU!!!
Asif i dont have enough keeping me up at night atm that i have to endure ur selfish lil world well mine seems to constantly fall down around me, and then rebuild. Theres one strong thing in my life at the moment, and thats Madeline, yet u find the need to constantly bag her and tell me how shes fucking me around and i should be treated better. I dont know if anyones told u, but she loves me, she at least tells me so, and god damn i hope its tru, i know it is, i feel it, y does it always have too be about u, u fucken bag the one person who has ever truely cared for me that isnt a family member, and its all becoz ur so damn jelous and u believe my life should still revolve around you!! Fuck You! Don't u realise ur the one whon fucked me around, u fucked me over, if it wasnt for Madeline id probably be dead in a ditch somewhere! She saved me emotionally, another thing ive told her. You fucken destroyed me, and shes picked me up, brushed me off, an given me something too believe in, a belife in love, a beliefe in me and her, in us, and all u can do my short, self centred friend is bag her, and i fucken hate you for that.
I cant wait to wash my hands of u, coz until u swalloww that fucken reality pill u lil bitch i dont want anything too do with u after this. And the sad thing is its still this worry abt ur problem that keeps me tossing and turning till fucken 4 am. I hate you, Stop bagging the person who saved me. The only person who has ever loved me, and who i will ever truely love. Since u told me that thing abt 2 months ago, my lifes been a fucken mess, just swallow ur useless fucken pride and tell me the answer, let sort it out and then i can try and re-build what was my perfect life which has fallen into complete and utter chaos since u came bak into it wit this lil fucken revalation.
Leave Maddy out of it, u dont know how much i love her, i dont think even she does sometimes, but thats not the point, she still loves me bak, no matter what where going through, which by the way, is none of ur buisness. Just tell me and then leave me the fuck alone. I love my girlfriend and ur petty lil life isnt gunna fuck it up. Not like u have fucked up the last two months of my life.
Too everyone who had too read this i am sorry, but i've been botteling my feelings and im sick of it, i felt like i was going to explode. Its hurt me and my relationships. Both family, friends and the one i love.
I sware, i will try to be a better person. Maddy, i found a reason for me, to change who i used too be, thats still you babe, i know im clinging atm, but its just coz of the shit in my life atm, see above for full details, and it feels like ur the only one there. I love you so much and your help too me through the entire time ive known you will never be forgotten. I love you.
I love you all, EXCEPT MY LIL PROBLEM OF CORSE!
Peace out Rollers.
Love Adrian Brian Stanley Brennan