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So, I finally exercised today. I ran a mile without stopping and I did a 25 minute whole-body Core Secrets workout. So in total...I did about 15 minutes of cardio and 25 minutes of strength training. I felt like I did pretty well and I really tried my best. I know that deep down inside my muscles are still there. I just have to let them out! They are covered in this layer of fat that MUST go away! I think what I need to do is just make better choices about what I eat and eat less. On the weekends I don't plan on sparing much, but during the week, I think I need to stick to being sensible. I should make sure to come home and work out first thing and on my days off, work out in the mornings, and then take the weekends off to just relax. I worked out today, I plan on working out tomorrow, and then I want to work out on Thursday morning. This will be a big step for me if I actually stay with it, but I need to. I need to get away from this disgusting person I have become. I feel disgusting and when I look in the mirror, all I see is a person who doesn't try hard enough at some of the things that really matter. I had this great body and I let it go and now I will have to work extra hard to even get close to the point I was at two and a half years ago. I had it all going for me and I just allowed myself to hit rock bottom. I love food and I know that...but I have to learn to control my love for it like I have to control my love for other things. Unfortunately, food is not the easiest thing to let go of. I need to start eating something for breakfast or at least eating a piece of fruit or fruit from the juicer. I need to get some sort of nutrients into my body, and I also need to think about taking some sort of meal replacement like Slim Fast or just drinking a Jamba Juice or Juice It Up for lunch. During my two Spring Breaks I am really going to be working hard at this...so beginning next Monday, I am going to try my best to replace a meal with a shake, eat something extremely balanced for lunch or breakfast, and have a good dinner, but not eat too much...and then have fun on the weekends. I believe that if I balance this out with exercise I will start to see a HUGE difference very fast. I have the capacity to lose weight quickly, so I should take advantage of it. I want to have people tell me that they notice a difference and I want to see it in myself also. I need to do it for me.