reflective update
i feel like i'm losing it. i am so not motivated.
i've been thinking more and more about dropping out and applying for jobs teaching in high schools but honestly i'm afraid of high school. there's so much censorship and so many restrictions that i don't know if i could control myself. and most of the jobs out there are in private, religious schools. on the one hand, being a preacher's kid may help, but that's not me. and i don't lie well, and i don't hide my feelings well.
but i don't really want to move again either.
i wish i'd thought of this last year when there was an opening at the Florida Virtual School. had i gotten the job i would have been able to telecommute like seth.
i wish i could just find a position at a junior college or community college or whatever they're called and sit back and teach what i want, but that ain't gonna happen.
i've come to terms that i'm not really smart enough or disciplined enough to teach beyond undergrads and that's fine with me. i don't want all that extra work and competitiveness.
but i don't want to think i've wasted the last 3 years. i haven't because i got some great teaching experience but i feel like i'm letting everyone down if i don't finish.
anyone have any advice for a lost graduate student?
i've been thinking more and more about dropping out and applying for jobs teaching in high schools but honestly i'm afraid of high school. there's so much censorship and so many restrictions that i don't know if i could control myself. and most of the jobs out there are in private, religious schools. on the one hand, being a preacher's kid may help, but that's not me. and i don't lie well, and i don't hide my feelings well.
but i don't really want to move again either.
i wish i'd thought of this last year when there was an opening at the Florida Virtual School. had i gotten the job i would have been able to telecommute like seth.
i wish i could just find a position at a junior college or community college or whatever they're called and sit back and teach what i want, but that ain't gonna happen.
i've come to terms that i'm not really smart enough or disciplined enough to teach beyond undergrads and that's fine with me. i don't want all that extra work and competitiveness.
but i don't want to think i've wasted the last 3 years. i haven't because i got some great teaching experience but i feel like i'm letting everyone down if i don't finish.
anyone have any advice for a lost graduate student?